Salvation
Farhan Roy Rani
who owns the lion's mane.

Prologue


The sky has no limits. Go break a leg.

with all my heart and soul./ Monday, March 31, 2008
mama say i can get high blood since its genetic from my granddaddy. i hate when my heart pump so hard. its painful i tell you. really painful. i can promise you readers, its the hardest moment of my life last night. i swear. please god, avoid that from happenning again. stupid shockness. i may be 19 this year but why such health problem? i'm not going to touch another ciggs anymore. more workouts for the heart.

pls heal my heart, almighty :(

and i hope you will never never never never ever ever ever ever do that again. no more. no more pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. please learnt and remember this. :(

i will be on leave for a moment of time. i'm waiting for miracle to happen again. but when will it come to me?

(eh i like one of my friend's friend profile shoutout, "learn to avoid girls or guys who are attached will you??" yeah it applies to me as well sucka!)

the right path is just about to begin my dear...april's here! all smiles my friends..

something wise./ Sunday, March 30, 2008

this is taken from some place wise.

"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy. Anger... Tears... Laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love one another. I'm sure of it."

yes i believe in that. that's why i truly love my another half.

i love you.

evil./
another creation.

(why she never tag? hmm..and can i skip 11 april? hmm..)

the heart./ Saturday, March 29, 2008


the bleed. all combined together.

its a shocking story./ Friday, March 28, 2008
i can promise you after hearing my dad's story, i am freakishly shocked. i didn't know my grandfather learnt some skills. as in you know, SKILLS. my dad told me that, once, a lady which is my grandaunt i think was being disturbed by someone. bully in other sense. my grandfather with cool outfit meet him up, the bully. what he did was just shake his hands. and with a blink of an eye, that bully just fell down to the ground in a twinge manner. and that bully never dared to disturb my grandaunt ever again. there's more stories of him about this. damn. i didn't know that my grandfather was once a cab driver. not any ordinary one. the way he dress himself up, its like, all white, a stick(tongkat) and a blowing pipe. with hair combed to the side like mine. and he was once a policeman. if only he is alive now, i would love to hear his stories. and guess what, he was married to my chinese grandmother which made my grandmother his second wife. interesting.

as for my dad. he told me before he sparred with his friend. they sparred but with no contact. imagine that. no contact. just pure air. i can't remember what technique he was using. but he told me its useless to have it. its not your strength. even now, if he feels something moves his hand, he wouldn't want to think that, that "thing" moved him. just think allah did. he told me. hmm. i wonder if that thing is passed down to me. lets hope not. i don't want it either.

gosh. my grandfather really look like me. his eyebrows and eyes. damn. i'm proud to hold his name.

my father told me his attitude and mine are alike. that's interesting. haha.

i have update my blog.

next week will be my orientation. the last day or night i might say will be the night which can be recognised as a clubbing arena. haha. let see for this event to come. i will post alot of pictures for this.

shall end here.

note:
(i will wait for you to really show me what you have said to me. love you.)

what is wrong with my tagboard?/
hmm. what's wrong with my tagboard now? haiz.

Happy Birthday Sayang!/ Sunday, March 23, 2008





i hope you love what i did for you yesterday. i love you. may god bless you. happy 18th birthday sayang~

my granddad!/ Thursday, March 20, 2008
spot which one is my late grandfather, mohamed yunos(:

also, keep on voting for my previous post pictures! thank you!

help me help me./ Wednesday, March 19, 2008
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which one nicer?

my current project./
these are my current project which i am doing right now. i'm doing more and trying to get improvements along the way. please comment on my tagboard okay? thanks guys.



too much blue intensity.


i need a digital camera instead of my sony ericsson. haha.


my second favourite. using akmal's camera. with perfect light intensity. hell yeah~ but i need the original copy. haha.


my favourite. hello, i'm using my hp camera ok! haha!

lomo homo hell yeah~

realllllly miss that lady./ Tuesday, March 18, 2008

there are a million stars and a million dreams, you are the only star for me, the only dream i dream...


crack that code baby~
its your turn(:

3 words ain't no lie, i love you~

need for speed anyone?/ Monday, March 17, 2008

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((/ Sunday, March 16, 2008
why....:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

this is how i feel./
peace to all readers(:

today is sunday. relaxing in my room thinking what will happen in the future. i don't even dare to think about the past. ahh. damn stupid f* past. haha. i will have to learn how to control my blood pressure. it is scary sometimes. my younger sister, worst. so i have been thinking will i be able to survive in the near future? sometimes i prefer going to school. how i wish i have a special eraser to clear my mind.

for the past few months, i went alot of hiccups. sometimes i ask myself, "why until like this? what have i done?" then my heart would beat faster. i ask my dad about some things. i am so glad i got a dad like that. sometimes whenever i read the Quran and read the meaning behind it, i feel different. very different. then i would reflect about it. and promise myself to be a better person. well, i don't know. i may be crazy at times, childish and when in a relationship, i know i am being overprotective sometimes. ok. its my bad. but sometimes, hmm..nvm. whenever i'm with my close friends like the LPR, i can be crazy and childish. haha. i know. i'm serious sometimes that is when i'm "you know".

well i hope, i really hope really really hope, nothing bad will happen again. i really don't want that to happen. hmm. especially you know what. i'm doing my part to grow that rust with the t again. and this time i hope that t will grow bigger this time. its your part now...

officially an RP student./ Saturday, March 15, 2008
finally, school misc. things that need to be done are done. thanks mum and dad! i promise you, i will try my best to be the best! and i will do what you say dad! insyaallah~ *wink*

school orientation will start on the 2nd of april. yeah~ before that, i would like to go to taka. haha! yeah baby yeah! i kindda like this personal computer of mine. because a lot of games can be put in inside. and i guess i can't put all right? haha. i need to put school works as well. i'm going to feel great schooling at rp. i can meet my gf frequently. i can visit my cousin and grandmum as well. and i can vroom vroom around and around. hahaha. what's more? FADLI, MUSTO, AFIQ are there! YEAHHH!!

i think i'm going to get all the necessary items for school. i am still lacking of something. hmm. i wonder what.

and next saturday hopefully i can meet my girlfriend! birthday girl eh darl? hehe. love u~

just now soccer session was great. everyone played super good. to me the best player among all is ridza. i call him the most expensive player in LPR. he is the best la to me. even he is my opponent, he can still support me. and his kicking, dribbling and saving are darn good. i'm not saying the rest are bad. just that he got this special thing call humble although he is super hyper and noisy at times. haha. that's why i tag along sometimes. the most quiet player is izzat. quiet yet dangerous. he don't speak much. he moves alot. very good at tackling and the coolest because of his friendly attics. i love fadli's style of playing. very elegant. very smooth. his favourite move, haha, see it for yourself. damn. wish i could chip like that. musto and mus, almost the same. haha. mus can pass and shoot far. for musto, he can dribble. try take a look at his face. all pumped up to win. you can see it. always trying to be complicated. i like that about him. keeps on trying. for mus, i like his encouragement. very calm and relax. haha. and the rest? i update later la. haha. as for me? i don't like to talk alot when playing. maybe when someone is being crazy then i tag in. haha. that is that rizal comes. hahaha. very crazy minded guy. sometimes nuts. play soccer like shahrizal. very good like him. haha.

that's all. i miss my gf alot. monday will be teman-ing afiq maybe to rp.

I CAN'T SIMPLY WAIT FOR 22ND~ LETS GO FLY BABY~

quick one./ Thursday, March 13, 2008
hey

today went to rp for enrolment. thanks mum and dad. you guys are the best. i love you people. there were alot of students there. damn. i thought the Q would take forever. alhamdulilah it didn't. bought everything that is needed.

tomorrow going back there again. shit. tired tired.

all the best to sayang tmr!

and to all rp students, orientation is on the 2nd. be there and be square.

i miss my girlfriend alot~

determination./ Tuesday, March 11, 2008
lets see.

100 more days?

what's the result?

i don't know.

(:

600 post!/ Monday, March 10, 2008
that day. swim day.

my body seems to be in pain. son of the son of the son of the. haha. hmm. do you know what i feel right now? i feel like closing my blog. haha. but i think i won't because i started this blog 4 years ago. i just feel .... oh nvm.

i miss dear. hope to meet her soon.

anyone have an eraser? i need it badly. hmm.

its 25~ do you know what does that mean?

hmm./ Sunday, March 09, 2008
i really miss my grandfather. he passed away on the 7 march 1998. how can i forget? hmm.

and

and reveal yourself unknown. because i know what subscriber you're using.

pillars./ Saturday, March 08, 2008

thanks for the concern my friends, my pillars, my brothers.


hello unknown./
thanks unknown tagger. reveal yourself. don't speak louder than words. reveal yourself first. then we talk. haha. i can't be calm when things are not settled. i'll be calm when its done. i'll be calm if things won't go haywire. i prefer to show and talk at the same time. if i show the action, what kind of action? sometimes talking can settle things out. i don't expect retribution to occur but retribution will surely wait for people who do wrong. if he/she is lucky, nothing will happen but will be ask during hari persoalan di akhirat, maybe. i face retribution alot of times. during my secondary days. during my skateboarding session. during cheating(hehe). i was very naughty last time to my mum and dad. and sorry if i curse alot. but it happens when i scold. i know you would say talk before you think but this is life. you snooze you loose. curse is wrong and don't worry la, my dad teach me to seek for forgiveness frm god after i curse out of the blue. i hope i will be forgiven. i shall take your advice. don't worry. lets talk. its your choice to take my advice or not. because this advice is from someone i really love. someone who used to beat me and scold me. someone who curse me. someone who would love and care for me. someone who loose control but manage to settle things out. and of course, i will be open. i'm a very honest man. not to boast but i feel that way. thanks anyway mr or maybe ms unknown. may allah, the almighty bless you..

reveal yourself. cheers(:

luge racer./
al fatihah.

ok. today kecoh beb. hahahaha. kecohh~

faisal and me conquer the luge course. everyone there were like trying to save themselve from us. hahaha. luge racer. mat luge rempit. if only i have a motorcylce, NSR is mine and expressway will belong to faisal and me. blood brother. haha. but not now. haha.

then sheesha. and supper. i use to smoke so when it comes to sheesha, ceh bah. hahahaha. tk la. lol. sakit dada aku. haha. tried doing the "O", masih boleh sikit sikit. so ni tandanya OT, old timer. hahaha!

oooohh yeahhh. that's me. i'm ready. be friend with me. don't challenge me. i'm honest. i care. i share. i love. i swear. and i will give you fame. cehhh. lol!

done. bingo. loved.

salam.

(love youuu~)

love./ Thursday, March 06, 2008
this is a message to someone special out there...

i am deeply in love with you. my heart keeps beating very hard whenever i feel something is not right. but on the other hand, i would go and take wudu' and pray to almighty allah. i would feel alot better after that.

i always feel your presence around me whenever i'm alone. my mind would go "how are you my dear". the way you treat me are way too special. and i love that baby. i know we are from the different schools now. who cares? my love and our love for each other won't disappear.

i got some friends who protect me well. sometimes i would go "fuck you" and i don't want to listen. i'm staying strong on the ground loving you everyday. i won't go for other girls even if they help me to get to know that girl. no i won't! i won't get influence that easily. peer pressure is the number 1 killer.

we are going the ups and down. this is love. the couples who inspire me the most are someone very close to you. what's more they are wayy longer than us. haha. i won't let you down. even i'm quite slow to enter poly, trust me baby, i will make you proud. i will make you fly high in the sky with me. going strong like an onyx for 3 long years. who dares to destroy this relationship? i can't allow that. my dad seems to know about you. my aunt and uncle seems to know you. and guess what? my aunt is proud of me. hehe. what's more my loving cousin, kak nur loves to see your cute face. one day insyaallah, i shall bring you there. if you know what i mean..hehe..

dayahan is going strong. going ups and downs together without fear. with allah's help, i won't give up. i promise you i shall love you with all my heart. i shall not let you down. the world of bloggers are reading. listen guys and girls. i love to say this long time ago..and i am using this again...i'm sorry to all my admirers. i'm sorry to all my admirers. my heart won't change a pump of blood. she's already mine. and yes guys..don't destroy our relationship. i know you are trying to woo her. it's a sin. say i'm trying to be good. go on. don't destroy our relationship. don't destroy other relationship. this is my word. my heart. my soul. and i'm sorry sayang for all the wrong deeds i've done. don't worry i've forgive you..

this post is written with my sincerest heart. and i promise you, my eyes are all teary..

last message..this is OUR relationship, OUR love and OUR guts to face the obstacles. bring it on. DAYAHAN IS GOING STRONG.

may allah bless us.
may allah bless you.
may allah bless the world of bloggers.

tc. assalamualaikum..

thanks./ Wednesday, March 05, 2008
thanks. i noe i can keep that advise. i hope i can do that 'thing' one day ah for u. hehe.

i'm feeling miserable right now. disappointed. disappointed. disappointed.

haiz.


(cunning smile to my brothers. a cunning smile indeed~)

kwnku, brotherku./ Tuesday, March 04, 2008
i hope my friend is doing well now. damn. i had fun just now. haha. walking around aimlessly just to waste time. mat rep kat dlm mrt nk berus gigi pun mau kerek sama kita. alamak..pijak kasut aku tk tau nk ckp sorri. bodoh punya mat gay.

ok. today was okay. i had fun with musto and fadli. kalau izzat ade, confirm lagi mesra. ridza lagi gila kalau dia ada. stop by at yio chu kang to visit heeren. fadli and i need to. so we waste our damn ezlink going there. haha.

then continue back our journey to marina. tk ada arah tujuan, we walk and walk looking for something. and i went to search for my manager. the gerek punya manager. when i enter JL, bloody hell. there were alot of temp staff. not fair. not fair. af not working there anymore. haha. but that selenger girl still work there. hahaha! lol.

then we walk to clarke quay. smoke. no i don't. my gf loves me. i wont smoke. talk about some perasaan menyundal. kesian la. im really sad for him man. this is the picture.

oh yeah man. i remember sparring with my dad that day. the way he start his moves, wow. mcm harimau. haha. but his punches and grabs are hard to catch. i miss his crazy moves. now he very lazy. haiz. i don't mind sparring with my dad because i, myself felt his punch on my face before. yes. and i also pity him when he was young too. really. and he even ask me why i didnt give a pucnh to that guy who kick that sec sch girl that day. regret regret! argh. tkpe. tunggu masa nye. tunggu sahaja. i will make him proud in the ring...

what happen today/ Monday, March 03, 2008
assalamualaikum ya ahli bloggers! lol~

when i woke up by izzat's call, i was quite pissed off. why? because he told me that almost all members of LPR refused to come. izzat was quite sad. of course i also sad la. but after that fadli called me.

fadli: "an! kau da kat mane?"
me: "izzat kan kate da cancel?"
fadli: "*vulgar* aku da keluar rumah seh~ *vulgar* aku call dorg ar! ah kk bye bye!"
me: "ah kk." (and i went back to sleep for a while)

fadli was so damn pissed. haha! a few moments later, he called me and asked me to be ready quick because he was already under my block! and i was still on my bed! LOL! and so i rushed myself to the toilet and never bathe. just visit the toilet. no laaa~ after that went out meet him. and as usual, there were some latecomers. basket~ LOL!

today i was pissed off. i can't even played properly. no mood at all. but after a goal, i was quite okay la. yeah.

so after soccer, went lot 1 and makan. fadli's mum met the LPR dudes. ridza, ezat, fadli and me. and before that, we were talking about m.s! "eh he look suspicious! that daun look suspicious!" inside joke ar! hahahaha! ridza was irritated by me. hee~

then fadli's mother treat dessert. thanks fadli's mother!

then went home. sleep after solat.

then wake up, thought about something. my sister actually has a very very promising future. with carreer like that! even though she is so damn irritating, she can be helpful too! i tell you, she is a pro in adobe photoshop. and i? a pro in getting that software. lol~ i always challenge her with my digital art work. the reason i don't want to post it on the net is because its not time yet. hehe. but my sister put hers already! and guess what? everyyyyone loves it! and now she is hired. 1hour: $8 solid bucks! and ibu said this, "kakak, letak farhan dalam kerja kau la!" and i was like, "ibu, ahan tk lama lagi school seh!" then ibu said, "siang siang tk nk!" then i went, ".............." hahahaha!

i hope with this kind of course i can achieve what i want. i hope 1 day i can work together with my sister. eh wait, see first lah. lol~

aah yes..i really miss honey dearest now..

being 9teen./ Sunday, March 02, 2008
alhamdulilah my headache subside already. well, these few days about the m.s news, he is still not found yet. maybe he is hiding in the grave or something. prison break should hire him. only allah knows where he is.

i have been thinking to myself about being old already. this year i'm going 19. and yet some people thought i'm 16 or 17. haha. grateful! being old is great too. but wth. there's still some things i can't even do. hmm. i can buy cigarettes and liquor. okok. islam discourage that. i can take motorcycles or cars. yes i can ride the bike but i need a lisence to be legal. yes. hmm. but haiz..nvm. sooner or later, my coolest cousin will have a baby and i am going to be the coolest uncle! yes AR! yeah. time flies like those sparrows did. national service. aah. that is when i'm 21 or 22? i don't know.

sometimes i hate people looking down at me. not sometimes. always. i hate it when people look down at me. think they are so good at something. 4 words for you and another 3 word, YOU.

enrolment letters are given out to RP student already. those who have not received it by 7 march, email them. 13-19 march is the matriculation period. please be there before 19. or you will be disqualified from taking your course. hehe. then don't forget to choose your desired notebook. this year, all the notebooks seem to be awesome. blardy awesome. and i can't wait for the cca thing. and i can't wait for the class to start. but wait, asmin told me first year students from different courses will be in 1 classroom together. MIXED! haha! that means, i could be with fadli or musto or afiq! hahaha! or maybe nishant! hahaha!

hmm. i do miss my gf. its alright even if i'm not in the same school as her. i know and i always know she will love me and i will love her. (if only i can keep her in my bag. hehe) yes. she will always be in my heart. always. and i won't let this relationship be gone. i love u dear..

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