11. dimple wimple

Just came back from training. Guess what, I nearly break my left arm. Long story and I'm in no mood to tell. & all of them ask me why long time never come down together with my cuz. Abg Zul was the last person to ask me and can still joke with me, "eh! kau! mana kau pegi? asik tenggelam, timbul, tenggelam, timbul je? atau abg zul yg asik tk dtg?" hahahas! Everyone laugh! And Fara was there too. Abg Saifullah and Saifuddin were there also. Just now saw one of the twins at Woodlands and there they were, training me personally. Gosh! Well overall training quite ok. No sparring but still arm nearly break. But bad news still, I sprained my same ol' finger again. Ouch~

-Sooner or later, you'll know. It hurts real bad + my lil' finger! ):-

Allah, only you know what I'm thinking now after someone told me something. Now, I don't have the mood to fight tonight. I just feel like kicking the pads real damn hard releasing my expression towards it. I'm so thankful someone told me but too bad, that imagination is still there...that's it. Haiz...

-Its just a fake offer. Now that word is stuck in my head. Please, I know what I should promised myself, u and my daddy.-

I've update my blog. Blind is it?

-I love her..Why? Because I love her!-

Ohh! I have a bad headache although I took 2 panadols just now. Still its still painful. Lets wait for it to recover. Insyaallah(:

New time-table. New dateline for my art! Wohoo!! A VERY GOOD NEWS FOR ME AND THE REST!! Alhamdulilah! (& New attitude towards my studies)

Thank you dear for that cute letter of yours...Love you~ (:

Ok. Now I'm very tired and feeling heavy. I want to rest. Byebye!

-I will always do too...-

Hi! I'm here to announce to you readers that school is re-starting tomorrow morning. Hell yeah! Hahas! I've done cleaning up my entire room. I felt pain in my stomach. My shoulders are aching. Never mind that. I'm totally feeling bored now! Hungry too!

Oh well. I'm eating later. Btw, today is 25-06-06! Yeah! Happy 14 Monthsary dear!! Hehes! See you tomorrow okay? 14 months together already and still counting! Hehes! I miss you dear...

Well, today I was hoping to sk8 for the last time since tomorrow is schooling but weather doesn't allow. Hmm. I hope its raining tomorrow! Why? So I can sleep in school! Hehehes! It will be back to normal tomorrow. No more coming to school at 9am, no more going out anytime you like. Damn. I hate this kind of life. But I have to learn and like it like my uncle said yesterday. Hahas! He advised my cousin and I all the way man! Haiz..I'm afraid of failing my N and will have to go to a longer route. Once is enough man! I have to make sure I can do it! Hmm. Then everytime outsiders asked me where I study and I'm taking what? I always have to tell the truth but its the best way. Then after telling the truth, they sure ask me what's my age. I said I'm 17. Then there's one kind of stare occur. Damn! Like my mother said, "kalau ramai org cam kawan ayah ngn ibu panggil kau handsome, tk da guna kalau bodoh cam udang.." Hmm. I also keep quiet lar. One day I prove them wrong man! hahas! Then baru la equal! hehehes!

Sometimes, I hate to imagine myself sitting in Kranji next year when actually my batch have actually finish studying in Kranji. This is fuck man. I hate about this man. I don't how it goes at the end of 2006. Well, we'll see. Till here, take care everyone~

-14 months of blissful love. Let it continue till the last breathe.-

Hello all! I'm currently updating my blog from my grandmum's house. Hair cut already. That aunty very cool. $5 only. Lucky my dad knew her. She look like one hair designer. Hehes! She's very kind. I asked for high slope. Then she thin cut my hair for me. So cheap man! Compared to the place I usually cut, $9. Wow! Hehes! See dear, I didn't cut botak! Hehes! I can't wait for school! I want to finish up my art and buck up all my subjects. Wahahas!

Well, gtg. I want to eat dinner although I ate earlier on just now. Hehehes! Big appetite huh? Only she knows how big. Hehes. Alrite! Takkaire!

-I sayang sama You! Hehes!-

I was having a horrible headache yesterday. Despite that, I still followed my dad to the Night Safari. The trip there was quite ok but boring at the same time. My dad's friend were there together with their family which MOST of them were girls and only 1 boy which he is about 22? I was like so damn quiet at the same time. But I love the feeling of the tropical forest and the darkness plus the breeze which eventually made me feel confortable. The king of the jungle was fast asleep like a cat. Small baby croc's eyes were very cunning. But if dear was there with me on that tram, it'll be great. Hehes. I miss her dearly now~ Hmm.

Today is the beginning of a new day. Maybe around 3pm or 4pm, my family will be heading to my grandmum's house. It's been few months we've visited there. I hope my cuz are there too. Especially that freako joker, Afiq and his bros. It'll be great if that jungle boy, Faisal is there too! Hahas! Mum has been telling me to go and cut my hair, clean my cupboard and wash the tank. Wth? So many task in one day? Hahas! Maybe cleaning cupboard and the tank will be postponed to tomorrow. Hehes! For my haircut, I'll go to my dad's shop first and then will go to the salon since the salon is next to his shop. Yeah~ It'll be great!

Ok then. Gtg. I miss dear loads now. I hope she message me or something. Alrite then. Got to go and cut my hair. Bye!

-You make me shine-

*7 random facts about me*
1.I have thick eyebrows
2.I think thrice before doing anything
3.I'm taken by Nur Hidayah Bte Aziz(:
4.I skate. But in a process to be better
5.I hate to become "sot" if I don't get to nail a single trick
6.I hate poseurs and I hate when I'm moody
7.I love to Rock the stage

*7 thing that scare me*
1.Allah
2.Parents
3.Loosing her):
4.Results coz' I'd experience getting a WORST results ever in 2004, Secondary 3H
5.Thinking to do this trick or not coz' you'll nvr know if you break ur bones or not
6.Loosing a battle in the ring
7.DEATH coz' you'll nvr know if the angels face are angry or not when about to take your soul

*7 random music at the moment*
1.Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down
2.Cigaro - System of a Down
3.Sum 41 - Pieces
4.Please Come Back To Me - Dusk For Sixteen
5.I Don't Want to Miss A Thing - Aerosmith
6.Already Dead - Silverstein
7.I write sins not tragedies - Panic! At The Disco

*7 things i like the most*
1.Does this include my girlfriend or not? ARH! Dun care ar...Just write..NUR HIDAYAH!(: hehes
2.My family
3.My Sk8board
4.My friends
5.My handphone
6.Performing LIVE on stage
7.Fighting in a ring (find out urself and keep it to urself)

*7 things i say the most*
1.Hahahahas!
2.Apa sak?!
3.Burp!
4.I love you
5.Alah..
6.Boring ar..
7.Alrite! YESH AR! FINALLY!!!

*7 people to do this*
1.Anyone
2.Who
3.Wants
4.To
5.Do
6.This
7.Thing

Thanks Jaliah for this opportunity! Hahas!

-I'm sorry honey..I guess I was pissed off for a while that day-

I woke up and pray. After that wait for 8.30am to go to school. For what? Art! My life is damn dull if everyday go to school doing the same ol' thing and looking at the same ol' thing. Arhh! But today was quite different. I played soccer like yesterday but I guess my energy was not up to standard. Muscle cramps here and there. My back is worst! But have to endure.

After soccer, went home, bathe, get changed and straight away went to Civic Library to meet dearest. Omg..I was late and she was alone all by herself. I owe you something honey. (: Tomorrow hopefully can go school with her. Then maybe after school going skateboarding. I hope Faisal my cousin can make it. Oh my! I hope tomorrow is a fine day! (:

Overall, I had fun with dear today. I hope tomorrow too! Hehes! Well, takkaire everyone! I love you NUR HIDAYAH BTE AZIZ! Hehes..

-Ok. I forgot to take some pictures with my camera and Neoprints. Hahas!-

I'm back from art. Actually, thinking of sk8boarding but then I think again, "nah..maybe dear go to the library and maybe I can meet her there.." But then plan changed. She didn't go and I didn't sk8. Tomorrow those sk8ers are going Sommerset I think because Hafiz said to me. Then dear said tomorrow maybe she's going. Ok I hope tomorrow I can plan well. Now my finger on my left hand is swollen. Its big! Hahas! Why? Lets find out.

After art, all of them invite me play soccer with them. So I did until 3. One of the match, I became the goalkeeper. Which goalkeeper go up and try to strike? Hahas! I did that. Then after 30 minutes of hard time to score the last goal which two teams already had 1-1, we nearly lost after I tried to save kick the ball to the other side but then the ball reflect and Afiq kick the ball and I save it and accidentally drop it and I go down and took the ball then this is the scariest part. When I was about to pick the ball, Hafis and Afiq kick the ball which accidentally hit my 2 fingers on my left hand. I "laughed" in pain. Hahas! Its damn painful! Hahahas! Finally I cannot tahan then I just let the ball pass through me and I rest. Hahahas! Then we played and played until we put it off. Very tired. Total number I scored: 3 or 4. Hahas! Now in pain. Hehes!

I'm quite bored now. I feel like going out sk8 only. But its raining. Well, I can't wait lar to meet dear. Miss her badly. Hmm. Ok lar. Bye.

-You're my Princess(:-

Is it raining outside? Ok! All set and ready to go. Mp3 is ready, Paintbrush and Paints are ready! Lets go! I guess today I have to rush. To at least colour half of my board. I hope all the blending and toning is cool and nice. Hahas! I hope so. I'm going school in a few minutes time. I miss dear loads and loads and loads! I have to take my breakfast first. Right dear? Hehes! Alright! Gtg!

-I Write Sins Not Tragedy!-

Second post! Went sk8boarding with old pals at Lakeside. That park there is totally awesome. Why? Because the place is very spacious but the main sk8 park is small. There are half-pipe, fun box, two rails, and curbs. There were also small mini vert for beginners to master the drop in. The place was damn far. My legs were tired by the time we reached there. Shahril was left behind. Thasif, Hafiz and me were in front. Reached the park and I straight away tried the half-pipe. Hahahas! Bulky Gasak on the move! Hahahas! They were cracking jokes non stop until I fell a few times there. I learnt how to 50-50 and boardslide. But its damn scary once you hit your ankle or your knee to the rail. I was damn fustrated after I hit once onto the rail. Its so damn hard to slot the trucks to the rail bar. Janz is a former street sk8er. I hope one day, he can teach me man. My friends teach also still the same. Hahahas!

Then got one time, I split my legs. Why? Its because of my friends! Make me laugh and I split my legs causing my groin to hurt. Hahahahas! Seriously, I've got to get a new set of sk8board. Then after sk8ing at the park, went back to Lakeside MRT station and wait for Shahril friend. Waited too long. Went street sk8ing nearby. Yes! Finally, I saw 3 sets of stairs. I learned and make a deal with Thasif. He's trying to learn Ollie switch. So together we learn. After about 30+ trials, I finally nail the trick! Wohoo!! But it was only once and after that, many accidents happened. My deck turn towards to the sky as if it was hardflip and BOOM! It hit my "in the middle of my legs" Ouch Ouch Ouch! I tried again, and it hit again. Tiring man! Shahril didn't sk8 much and Hafiz and Thasif asked him to sk8. But in a "hard" mode. Hahas! Cannot tahan when Thasif said that about something lar then he said, "maknenyer kau poser" hahahahas! Hafiz and I laughed! I think its about skim or something. Hafiz and I totally out about skim. Hahas! Then Shahril friend came. Then after sk8ing till 5.30pm, I went home and message dear. I thought she was on the way to Jurong but she's still at City Hall. So I decided to go home since it was already late.

Gosh. I miss dearest loads! Met her at C.C.K Mrt for a while only when she and her band members were going to Esplanade to celebrate yesterday success. Well I guess this week I stil can meet her. I miss her so damn much! Ok then. Takkaire everyone. And pray hard for me to finish up my board. Bubbye!

-I love you! I love you! I love you! No other girls. Just you honey..-

Last night was a great night out with peeps. Band concert was cool. I love the horse alot sia! If only I can take it back home. Hahahahas! I saw dear. She didn't saw me. Hehes. If only I could sent her back home. But I can't. Time didn't allow me to. Dad will be mad if I come home around 11.45pm. I miss her seh. Hmm. Dear, when you schooling again?

Well, after the band concert, went makan at Al-Amin. Had a good damn time over there. Man and gang went Town. Thanks for understand dude. They know my situation so they said its ok. :). Hafis made something cool. He smoke and release the smoke through rolled paper and it looked like some kind of motorcycle exhaust. So many people smoke. Ok fine. It was so called cool lar to them but not to me anymore. Hahas! Those who I never seen smoking, smoked. Omg~

I got 1 week left before school re-open which it is already open for me since the first day of term break. Shucks! Seriously talking, I'm missing dear so damn much! Aww~ Hmm. Well, today I don't know who to sk8 with. I heard from a few people that Yunos sk8? But what the fuck man?! I sms-ed him and he told me he didn't?! Hey hey?! Is this some kind of joke? Dammit lar! Janz can't sk8 today. I thought of sk8ing with him but he got something else on. I hope my cuz is superdamn free today. Hafiz and gang, I'm not too sure. One of my friends got in Top 10 for the sk8 comp and next year he will be playing at Macau Indoor Sk8park X-Games! Serious shit man! This is awesome! My own friend got in!! When will be my turn? Maybe after I got married? Hehehes!

I appreciate it loads to those who were there for me while waiting for dear. I told them its ok, I can wait on my own but they refused to go so they sat with me around 11.30pm. Thanks alot alot guys! Siti asked, "Asl duduk sini?" Faiz replied, "Oh! Kite tgh tunggu Farhan nyer future *ahem ahem*..." Hehes! I smiled and everyone replied, "Ohh! Okok.." Then waited and once I felt something not right, I decided to message dear and asked her where she was. She said she was on the way to go out. But then, suddenly, I felt something not right again. I called her and she said she was in school and that stupid teacher was talking to them. I felt very uneasy and I decided to go back home. She called me and I appologized to her I can't wait for her already. Its late. I'm so sorry dear. Once I step into my house, my dad told me, "Right on time! Message kau received kat ayah yg tu concert habis kul brape and kau aru sampai rumah!" Hahahas! I was so relieved. Alhamdulilah~

Well, I guessed yesterday was fun though. But I miss dear still. That's all for yesterday! Bye!

-I was there for you baby...-

Finally, I've been approved by Mrs Tay for my art. Yeah!! I can do on my canvas board. Alhamdulilah. Have been doing the face job from 10am - 5pm. Then in the middle of the class, I was rampage by a group of boys. For what reason also I not sure but it was funny ar! Hahahhas! There were so many girls. I was malu man. That was ok until someone said "take out the pants!" Dammit! That is where my anger start to glow. I was struggling from them. I kick their face and hit using my elbow to dunno who hold me to the stomach and bite them. I kick and kick and hit my board. Lucky man. Then I was drop down to the floor. I kick everyone hand. Blood was boiling to the max. I bite, kick and hit and finally I rage by shouting damn damn damn loud until both art classes stop talking and everyone was looking at me while I zipped my pants up. The place was in a total silence. I was panting for oxygen. Trying to control my anger, I pretend to be okay by saying, "relax..im ok.." They knew I was still mad. Lucky teacher wasn't there. Then one by one came and told me to relax. Recite a few prayers to control my rage. Absolutely no one came and disturb me like always do.

Omg..I felt so damn bad man. First time I showed off my rage to them. I felt bad. Haiya! Then after school, we all back to normal. Hahas! Funny man! Cannot tahan though. Second time kena strip. Tu rage kalau dapat pakai untuk silat kan power! hahas! But serious man. I feel bad sia. Cannot show rage to anyone already. Later my character different. I was like another person no one would like to talk to. Shucks! Lets forget about it! I'm sorry guys..

God! I miss dear so badly!! Tomorrow going school with her!! Yay!! Well, got to colour my layout so tomorrow will be easy. Caloz!!

-I miss you baby honey dear! hehes!-

I can die of exhaustion. No Art, No Life. But I'm super damn tired.

-Baby, I love you(:-

Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you...

Well, my art is half way through to the board. Insyaallah. I am missing dear so badly that I can focus on her straight into her eyes. I was sick yesterday. I didn't eat dinner the night before and I guess that was the reason I was sick. My left leg is killing me. I sprained it. It was totally painful. And yeah, yesterday I didn't eat dinner. Heez.

Today without any doubt, I'm going to start on my white piece of canvas board. I hope it went well. I hope its a Masterpiece. Insyaallah. I guess Art is really stressful. And it leads me to hunger till I refuse to eat yesterday just to finish up my Layout. Once I felt hungry, I'll turn moody and I suggest no one should come to me because I don't want to hurt anyone. ): I'm so sorry if I hurt anyone especially dear. )):

I waited for dear after Art yesterday. Waited till around 6.10pm. Since she did not turn up, Faiz and I went our separate ways. Walking alone with one hope, to bang into dear while walking. But it didn't happen. Nah. Its ok.

I hope today is good day. I hate rushing time. That's all. I miss dear truckloads...): Hmm..

-I dreamt I was a warrior. But am I?-

Oh dammit! My eyes are darn fcuking tired! I'm so sleepy! I have to be awake tonight! Do my art and ya, soccer match. Hehes! Tomorrow till Friday suck big time! I got only 5 days to sk8 like crazy. Arhh! All thanks to holidays! Next year still have. Dammit! Suffer sia!

Well, tomorrow till Wednesday is dearie's camp. I am gonna mish her like god damn mad dude. Haish! Though I'm going to be in school almost the whole day everyday! Omg! Dammit man!

Finally I got my mini sk8 pack. Yeshh! Hehes. Well, I gtg. I want to watch X-Men 2 first. Caloz!

-I miss you honey-

Ok! Thanks to Yahoo!, I can view all the team's stats. Alright! I am a fans of a few teams.

1) Brazil

2) England

3) Germany

4) Italy

5) Turkey

England won 1-0 to Paraguay. Yeah! That's great! But it will be greater if I can watch it. DAD! PLEASE BUY ME THE CHANNEL LAR! hahas! Takkaire! Maybe going sk8ing later.

Dear going camp tomorrow to Wednesday. Awww~ Gonna mish her loads.

-How 'bout a hug and a kiss before going?-

I'm supposed to go sk8 at Sommerset but thanks to my dad who only allow me a few hours to sk8. I straight away say "k nvm. no need sk8 then." Haiz. So protective.

Sorry dear for not picking up your call yesterday. I was asleep. Pening ar kepala. I'll sure mish you laling these few days. Hmm. Mwarcckkss!! I'm bored sitting at home with my fucking pathetic elder sis.

-Hey girl!-

Woke up, solat and bathe. Get changed and step out of the house around 7.15am. I'm late! Sorry dear! Reached school and waited for Maths to start and last minute it was put off. Hahas! Then English also never go. Just went for art. Before that sent deardear home. Hehes. We had fun! (: Oh ya! There was a shooting in school. And there were actors from the I Not Stupid. Played soccer and one of them I don't quite like. Hahas! Act ar. I score 1 goal! Muahahahhas!

Then rushed back to school. This is where the fun starts. The good ol' buddies were in the same room. We joke and joke and joke. Hahas! I was the main root of jokes. The whole class laugh like one joker. Hahahas! Ok! I got do my art also ar! Hahas! Hafis and Nishant is my number 1 victim. Always joke joke joke. Hahas! I was more than supernatural. I'm Paranormal. Hahahas!

I'm having a super stinky headache man! Cannot take it. So pain. Eat panadol also cannot but still can cheer ppl up just now. Hahas! Ppl cry, then they laugh. Mad sia! Hahahas! "Dayah tgk kau cam ne ar??" Hahahas! I laughed! How ar? Hehes. Only she knew how. I have my limits peeps. Relax.

ARH!! Tomorrow till next Friday is super totally intensive art man! From 9am - 6pm. How cool? Can camp there. Hahahas! Oh ya. I'm still considering putting my long bud in my band. Yunus. Guitarist. Maybe its better? Lets try. (: Ridz and Saz approve! Wohoo! I'm still considering. Alright then. Takkaire everyone! Gosh! Today I'm so in good mood! BYE!!

-The way you look into my eyes is so adorable-

WeEeEEeE~ I'm so happy that my teacher loves my idea about my layout. Hehes(: Thanks! And thank you to dearest for waiting for me. Hees! Mwarccks!

Well, today is chaotic. I shall not carry on. I think its better keep it silence before everyone knew about it. Middle man always sure get beaten up in the middle. Hehes.

Eh Singapore Idol start already! Hahas! Alright! Takkaire everyone! I love you honey!

-Hug me & Kiss me(:-

ART is hell man. My eyes are so damn heavy. I'm typing this with eyes half close. I'm totally weak w/o breakfast. Lunch didn't eat. Just drink. Super hungry for the afternoon.

Well, I'm still waiting for dear's sms but I guess she's mad at me. Hmm. I hope everything will be fine.

Oh my. My art is total piece of shit man. Arhh!! Stress! Hmm. I don't know man. Everything is in my head. Need a rest but cannot rest coz time so tight. Haiz..Well I guess I'm doom.

-Are you mad? Hmmmm..-

I'm waiting for your call baby...Lets make it private...

-Its up and down-

Hell yeah!!! My brain is block by my dead cells. I can't think of any good ideas to produce 5 damn good layouts!! Tonight I'm gonna paste it all on my board. ARGHH!!! Sleep late makes me lack of energy. Yeah. I have to endure. I have to finish it up before August. I have too! I'm gonna make it HOT baby!

Tomorrow serious business man! No more prank times. Hahas! Tu lar. Maen2 lagi. Hehes.

Ok lar. I'm going back to my art. Its time for my arty fingers to work! I guess its better left unsaid. Yeah~ I fear there might be tears etc. So long!

-mwarcckkkss!!!-

I nearly broke my ankle! Hahas! Skill da karat dok. Cigaro cigaro! Hahas! Boi Black mp3 so cool man! Buat ollie following the song. Fulamak! Hahas! Then ollie down stairs, land one foot! Lucky nvr do split. Hahas! Its surprising man when they said got 2 scootist sk8 sometimes on Sat morning at Sommerset. Hahas! I told them they are my fwens. Hafiz and Boi Black say both of them cool. Hahas! Coz after can do trick, both sure smile like one happy dude! Hehehes! Can't wait to sk8 at sommerset with the Mat Salleh. Hehehes. They said some standard okok. So ok la. Not paisay. Its time to break some bones! Hahas!

-CIGARO! CIGARO! CIGARO!-

Its like oooo I dreamt the worst dream. Its like when I say "who you?!" I'm gone. And I shall not continue. Its a fuck'up dream.

Oh ya btw, I hate ppl advising me in a wrong method ok? That's so discouraging me. I know what I'm doing. Don't ask who ok? "Siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas". I truly hate it. Its not from our school anymore. So yeah. That's it. I shall pretend I'm ok.

I've endured long enough. I just wish I'm in a hotel or something to cool myself down. Now, my art is making me sick. Can have headache man! If only I'm in sec 5 taking my O's. YA~ That's IF! Oh wtf. I hate to say this to the bunch of friends I had last time. I prefer having friends like now. Janz, Adi etc etc. If last time, they use to say ya ya ya. I smiled away in anger but just kept quiet. Like I was saying, I won't be staying in school for long long hours. Its my fault man for not studying hard and I know I know, please don't make fun of me lar. Even my dad yesterday suddenly said this to me. Hmm.

I'm so in a tight moment now. I don't know my silat is still worth it or not. My parents don't allow me to join comp not just because of my results only BUT they are afraid I might break a bone or something. Yeah. Thanks to someone who advise me the wrong method. You're not an adviser. I still obey parents for god sake. But I can't accept the answer when they trying to hide the truth of breaking bones. I heard both of them talking while I'm at the living room the other day. Well. It happened already. Such a "fun time" I had for my Teen life.

Ok lar. If anyone not faithful to me, fuck off. Abg Ramli thought me this phrase. Sial lar. Hahas! So ya, not faithful, fuck off. Or maybe, thanks ar thanks. Hahas..Ok lar! I want go study. I mish dear lar.

-I love you. Do you?-

Today I should go to the Balloon Hat Festival. I SHOULD! I asked my dad for permission to go but I wasn't allowed. Embarassing. I'm so sorry honey I can't make it to your performance. I truly am. ): This morning, my dad suddenly scold me to study. Its like hello? In the first place, you did told me this already and I didn't do anything wrong what. And I really get mad and sad when he said I'm left behind, I never study and stuff. Haiz. I studied like mad cow before exams and still, he refused it. I'm so fustrated now. I felt like tears running down my cheeks and of course breaking the kitchen wall. Why are they so protective? Why can't I do what I want? I am so down. I don't know what to do man. Even my friends said "weak ar, alah, bleh ar.." etc etc. Why can't I go? Is 17 an age of a baby? I'm truly sorry dear. I'm truly sorry to those who invite me to go with them. I'm truly sorry.

I know running away from home isn't a great idea. But sometimes, I thought that way before. Think of it again, I won't be survive long enough to go out there on my own w/o the world most evil and grusome enemy of all, money. I've endure it long until just now I spoke to my dad about my studies and finally he talked to me nicely. I was about to break down just now. I hate it man. I feel bad about everything. I can't go out and watch dear, I can't go fight in a ring for my team, I can't do what I love most and I can't have a tiny bit of freedom. )): I'm so down man. Not emo but down. Fcuk emo ok?

Haiz. I miss dear loads right now and of course I feel very bad for not turning up today. Hmm. I hope she's fine after her sickness yesterday. Well, if my dad wants me to follow him go hiking next two weeks, I'll know what's the answer. I don't want to go. No way. That's it. Its my choice. He can't force me. Hmm. I can't hate my life. But I am definitely feeling real down right now. But from now on, if I feel moody, I'll try to hide it and be as normal as I can be. Its such a burden to people around you who is not wrong. I'm truly sorry to those I did this before. I truly am. Oh I'm missing dear right now~

-I'll be fine I guess.-

Im mishing dear badly now. Ouch. I'm having a bad ache despite my health. I can still play soccer like mad man juz now. Omg! Hehes. The canvas board are out. ARHH!! Help me!

Tmr can't meet dearest sei..:( haiz...i mish her...

Tats all...takkaire to everyone esp. dearest! mwarcckks!

-I'll be in your dream if you let me(:-

Today was such a wonderful day. Spend time with dearest! Wohoo!! Hehehes. It was fun! Just hoping another day of fun together will come soon! Hehes!

Well, Singapore Idol tonight! 2 person who is going in: Paul & Jonathan. That's my prediction. For female: Rahimah Rahim & Rahimah Rahim. Seriously, she's GOOD! yeah! I like her voice. Strong. I wonder how her diafragm looks like. She's damn good man. Paul is cool with his voice. My sis say maybe he la salle. Dunno confirm or not. coz she seen him b4. He's so fucking cool. Jonathan is damn good. Power! Hady Mirza with the beanie is talented man. I like him. He haven perform for piano. Or is he out already? Haiya. I hope not. Tough competition man.

Oh well. I'm stress with art now. Soon, the canvas board is out. I'm gonna paint it like a pro. Hehes. Gosh. Can't wait to finish it.

I LOVE YOU HONEY! hehes..tats all!

-No girl can replace you-