11. dimple wimple

"hormat guru utama, HORMAT!" I guess today is another day I can't come. Exams ar. Haiz. I miss them.

Today is Friday. Hooorayy!! For some reason I may not be sleeping early tonight. I want to mug my science man!!!!! OooOoo lALa~ hahas!! Jan is totally madness today. He's so active! Hahas! Skola was ok la. My eyes are bothering me man. It is making me want to sleep! Adi ask me to go to the Doc but thanx for the concern bro. My mum is sick today. I guess I have to take care of her tonight. Btw, I totally forgot she's not working today..hahas..silly me!

My Napha Test is finally done. 4 As and 2Ds. Argh damn! I don't know gold or not. ): Nvm. What's done is done. Anw, I pity dear for her arm. Muz takkaire kay? (;

Went for Friday Prayers. Jan no. 2 most hated human in the world was there. He totally hate him. Chill bro. (: So after prayers went back home. I totally hate it when those freakos say this to me, "gi skola per?!" seriously. I know, I know its just a joke and I shouldn't take it to hard. But for GOD SAKE MAN! GOD SAKE! Please..you're hurting my feelings. Once in a while can coz I know ur're joking. But u people dun have limit. Not in front of EVERYONE in the Public! PLEASE!!!!!! Hate ppl hu a.k.a Terang Tanah!

I guess I have to bear with it and not to take it seriously. Fuck them. I hate them. Just pure fuckers...

"If I have a SHOTGUN, you'll be the first and then you and
you and you."

*cough cough*!

How I wish I'm fine now...

hehes..

dear, i got eat dinner tau! hehes(:

takkaire k?

mwarrrcccckkkkssss!!!!!!!!

"no matter what, i won't let us go apart..i love u.."

I don't care if I'm sick or not. Its god willing to give me or not. So I'll just take it. No fuss.(; But something really irritate me. My mum was complaining about my coughing saying this and that. Patience for now. I guess I was wrong just now. She's still my mother till death though.

Watery eyes are really making me blurry. And this cough is making me rub my chest. My throat is itchy for water. Just ate my medicine. Instead of eating a teaspoon of coughing syrup, I took a tablespoon of coughing syrup. Today is my sickness day. Headache due to coughing or lack of sleeping? I don't know. Stomach don't feel hungry coz of my coughing I guess..There's a blessing in every sickness, boi.. -dad

Mrs Tay likes my idea for my Art. Guess I have to work harder on it so that it will look something like Roy Lichenstein painting. Well, after magrib, studied my peribahasa. So later another 10 after doing my art. I hope I can sleep tonight. But I don't know. 80% I will have to sacrifice my time on my art and mye. Sometimes, I hate myself to be stupid for not studying hard enough. I hate ppl comparing marks with me and looking down on me. But I have to appreaciate this life of mine. I need my eraser to erase those filthy nonsensical drawing in my past. I don't know how long I have to do this. 6 years is more than enuff for me.): and I wonder why there's MYE when my buddy's school don't. So stress. After this year, there's another. 18 as a sec 5 dude? hmm..i don't know how..): life has to go on.....

"just a few 1 1/2 more year to go...):"

due to some extend, i shall post a short one today..

HAPPY 365 DAYS TOGETHER DEAREST!!
Thankiew for everything..
From top to bottom..(;
Your're the greatest, baby..
365 days together is great with you..
Though there's up and down...
25 is our great number...
And so do 23 & 11
I love you..
3 words said ain't no lie..
Kisses and Huggies from you..
I take and keep, thank you..(;
Lets stay together dear..
Till the day turn dark...
Together, Forever..
I'll never leave you..
Kisses & huggies from me...
For you I give dearly
Till here..again..
I love you my darling msKAmo-URi....mwarrccckks!!

yours truly,
a'an

"Happy 1-yr Anniversary Dearest!!"

I had a backache and finally got the chance to sit at 2000hrs.

IFD was a totally cool! Congrates to dear's class! (; So sorry about the whole thing until the whole school saw it. *kishkish!*

Ridza was totally black out after hitting onto the wall HARD accidentally and I was panic! Recite some prayers and a few moments ago, he sms me he went to see the doc and he's fine! alhamdulilah...(;..Gua sayang sama dia ar beb!

Tomorrow is 250406. Its "dayahan" 1-yr anniversary!! yay!

well more to come tmr rite dear? *huggs!*

"I love you more each day baby!"

I'm glad I finally told dear abt it. I was finally relieved. Thank you switheart~(:

Well, last night was another problem. Because of my bad coughing, I can't sleep until around 3-4am. I was so restless. Tossing left & right trying to close my eyes. I cough again. Everytime I cough, my chest hurt. So around 3.10am, I force myself to search for any medication. I thought it had finished so I did not take it earlier. Finally, a big bottle says something to do with drowsiness and I smell it. I recognised the smell and I took a big spoon and pour the medicine on it and swallowed it. Read a few lines of "zikir" and drank some water. And then went to bed. Finally, I could sleep. Gosh! I am so tired now~ Thought Abg Abdul(my tuition teacher) would come yesterday but heck, he's coming today. Postponed a few times yesterday. He said today he would be coming at 12noon. I hope so. Dear, if you tried to message me today and I didn't reply, I'm in the middle of tuition. Sorry dear..

Yesterday afternoon I decided to join deviantART. Yeah! My first art piece! Wohoo! Afiq was the first man to comment. :p Ok then, later if I'm free, I shall post my deviantART link on the link section aite?

So long~

"*cough! cough!*"

hi everyone. for some reason, i feel uneasy.VERY uneasy.and i wont tell. tat's it. ):

"i don't want her to leave me...neither do i coz i love her very much."

I'M SO DAMN TIRED!!! IT'S TIME TO MUG LIKE MAD!! ART IS TOTALLY TIGHT WITH SCHEDULE!! ARRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! MATHS IS LIKE CHOCODED AND I HAVE TO MAKE IT HARD BY PRACTISING IT AGAIN AND AGAIN!! ENGLISH IS NUGGET AND I HAVE TO "GORENG" IT TO IMPROVE MY LANGUAGE!! MALAY IS CHICKEN POX AND I HAVE TO EAT MEDICINE TO MAKE SURE I CAN WRITE WELL!! PHY IS STYROFOAM AND I HAVE TO CLOSE MY EARS TO DO WELL!! BIO IS IN US SO I MUST STUDY TO KNOW MORE ABT US!! S.S AND GEOG IS A TOTAL NIGHTMARE!!!! sigh~

"I'm ready for this roller-coaster ride...lets go~"

Man! Today was awesome man! Totally! Start off with morning assembly. My bag was super damn heavy! Sooner or later, my bag will have its misery. (Too bad for me I'm having a bad ache on my shoulders! Kate strong boi? hahas)...

So after assembly, it was MTL. Cikgu Zainal was pointing at Striezal a.k.a Rizal because he was so back to himself again. He was so hyper man! Hahas! I kept laughing man! So Rizal, lets get mad again like we do last time...(: Cikgu Zainal, "eh awak da dtg balik?" Rizal, "a'a cikgu, dier sakit pox berpox pox!" then he start to make me laugh. Same goes to Jan. Hahas! After MTL, it was Art. W/o I knowing, I Actually had done 6 exploration drawings so 6 more to go. :) Yipee! Then recess. Then Bio was tiring. I also don't know. But I feel tired. I guess joke too much la. Haah! Then after that Physic. Took a few pictures with Jan and took the class picture while Mr Malek teaching. Cool~ After school wait for Mr Malek to give notes and then Ms Yeo asked Jan and I to help her stuff. Then Rizal, Adi and I went to blok 525 to distribute fliers. Lucky the estate small. Then Rizal invite us go to an abandon house which was left for 3 years. It feels creepy once I stand in front of the door. But it was lock so I was relieved coz' I do not want anything to happen. So we went back to school.

Then Art IP Coaching was awesome! Ms Tay listen to my ideas and she adds on. Thanks! You rock! Then after that take some pictures with Faiz, Zul, Izzat and I. Hahahahas! So much action man! Hahas! So after art, wait for dear to come back to school. Then went home. Sent her back and went to Causeway a while to see what I want to buy. Then take photos. Hehes! Later I edit k dear? Alrightay, its time for me to fucking hell mug and do hw and art and art and hw and mug and sleep at 2am. Hows dat? Alright~ Tomorrow need to carry tons of newspaper, u want to sleep 2am. good ar! hahas~

caloz*

"no more shit in success...u gotta have style in it to pass dude.."

This morning, I decided to go to school. Actually last night around 12am, I plan to go today but didn't inform dear earlier. ): sorri~ So I thought I could catch up with her but I step out of the house at 7.10am. Then, I met Jansher. Hahas! So the good old time has arrive. Hahahas! We crack jokes here and there like we never do until reached school.

Once after we reached school and step into the Parade Square, many people looked at me and ya, I was like "Star Karat" hahas! Backside la Jan! Hahas! Thanks for welcoming me back to those who wished me. Hahas! Step in class only, "WELCOME BACK FARHAN!!" Hahas! Saufiah was wearing "my" jacket coz the logo was mine! SPIDERMAN! Wah liao! Hahas! So geram when I see her jacket. Ms Tan was feeling tired. Hahas! She forgot I came back. So suddenly, De Jun and Jan told her this, "wah lao, Farhan come back only got that picture.." its a picture of people wearing some protected clothing including the head. Like "perli" me only! Hehes! Then she looked at my face and ask me I never get on the face and I answered no. Then she praise me, "okla still handsome.." HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! So funny! Then Bio no teacher. Recess was okok. Dear was like geram at me. And I thought she really really geram so I took it seriously man...gosh..I thought I made her surprise and happy but skali she was geram. So its ok la. What's past is past..So the chocolate could survive by not melting in my bag. I gave everyone who came last week to my house and Jansher was like OMG~ during recess don't want to eat, but during maths want to eat. He cannot concentrate maths test because of the choc. It was tempting him. hahahas! So he ate it. Hhaahahahhahahahahahas! Then english was slacking. Cool!

Then after school lepak lepak wait for dear and talk with adi abt silat. Talk and talk until go home. Then dear and I walk to Civic lib. hahas! no lar..we take transport la sleng! Then I started to feel so damn hot like I had last week at home. Once I had that, I got no mood. WTF~ Haiz..But lucky dear was there to entertain. Hehes! mwarrcccks! so lek2 at lib coz long time nvr lek there...talk abt our past...aww~ well tats it for today!

tata!

"I can't wait for the next sunshine to see you..."

Hello...2nd post of the day. Today was great with the heavy rain. (: This morning, I watch SAW 2. Its a movie. Go rent or buy it. But first, go watch SAW 1 coz u'll have to understand from there. Its a M18 rating. So good man the show. Its about appreciating the fabric of human life. Its very educational. :p

So later in the afternoon, I met dear. It was fun! Hahas! Long time never joke around so there you go. hehehes. hmm. Haiya..how many days I have to wait to go to school man? Hmm...well, going back to school when u're at home for 2 weeks feels like u're on holiday...so u feel like lemak at home already. hahas! but I'm super bored at home coz everyone having lesson, there you are sitting at home. hahas..

Well, my bibir so kering and dear kept telling me to wet it but I bite it. hehes. k la..byebye!

"I'm sick of people who don't appreciate their life...Fuck hell to them coz this is what I call EMO!"

"Gone So Young"

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one......

Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight...

Tonight...

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know I'm in your heart tonight...
I'm in your heart tonight.

"Amber Pacific"

Good morning! Alright! Here's another Sunday for me! Hope today no tuition lar! Hehes! No lar. I want to do my self-study today. So tomorrow, Tuesday or Wednesday I'll be coming back to school. I'm fully recovered already! Alhamdulilah~ But mother said if I go school tomorrow I might ask to go home back. Alamak! Looks like I have to follow the MC date! Hahas! Damn! My N-Level art is a disaster! I'm super behind time already! Aisay man...Hope everything will settle quickly.

I changed my blogskin. So how issit? I know its bright but I love Vector Art. Hahas! Well, lets see what's gonna happen to me today aite? Takkaire!

"How I wish there is no N-Level Art which made me struggle..But who cares? A1, here I come!"

Ok. Long time no post! Hahas! All thanks to my pathetic elder sis. I can't use the computer that long so I'm taking my chance to use it. Well, yesterday I didn't go for my STA. I think they also off day because it was Good Friday. Hahas! So yesterday, mosque was full of muslim males. Lucky for me, there were some space left. So after that was raining heavily. I was soaking wet. My friends asked me where is my chicken pox? Hahas! Thank god I didn't get it on my face. Lepak a while and also at the same time waiting for the rain to stop but eventually, it did not. Hahas! Its ok coz its almighty will to do it. So I lepak with Zul, Syahrul and Faiz. I talk2 with Faiz. He eventually "anggap" me as his big bro so he told me everything that happened in school. A lot of stories, short time to tell. A few moments later, Eira and Ct came. Eira was thinking twice to shake hands with me. Hahas! I smiled away. Ct was with Zul the other end. She waved at me and I waved at her. So many ppl I didn't see for quite a long time. I miss Jansher's stupid jokes. I miss Sazli and Wan. Oh ya, most of the sec 4 have use my style of irritating ppl. Hahahahhaas! So contagious! Hahas. I miss all of my friends and of coz I miss dear...I wish today I'm able to meet her. Last night, I was simply late by a few seconds of not picking up the hp due to my Ishak prayers. So sorry.. If only I was punctual for the call and pick it up. 2 times miss call. So after that, I did my maths self study at the same time waiting for her call but eventually she did not. So I thought she might be bz or something so its ok. (: Well, I guess I gtg and play some Yahoo! Pool...takkaire..see ya arnd..

"a'anLOVEdayah...that is simply not a lie baby.."

First of all, THANK YOU FOR THE WISHES EVERYONE!! APPRECIATE IT LOADS!! THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO CAME AND VISIT ME TODAY TOO! hehes! THANK YOU FOR THE GIFT JANSHER AND ADI! THANK YOU FOR THE PREZZIE DEAREST DAYAH!! Hehes. I love it! A million million tanx to all the ppl who wish me happy birthday! hehehes..God bless all of you..(: its ok syida if u cannot make it...i still appreciate the wish! (:

Today was simply great! Got to meet my long time nvr meet buddies! Jansher, Adi, Rizal, Izzat and Ridza! They crack jokes once enter my house. Hahas! Then a few hours later, Fad, Azra, Wan, Jas and dear came. Very very very glad to see all! Long time never see dear. Gosh! I miss her...7-8 more days to go! But dear said "no..7..." hehes... I miss her loads and loads!! :) Thank you for the gift dear....mwarrccckkkss!!

So I guess my chicken pox reduce. My my fever increase. Funny man! Hahas! Well, thankiew everyone...and god bless all of ya! goodbye!

"I'll promise I'll hug you when I see you again..."

My chicken pox virus has reduce. But my flu virus increase. Is it because due to lack of sleep? Or is it lack of vitamins? hmm. Never mind..Well, in just a few hours time, I'll turn 17teen. Insyaallah. I'll be missing my 16teen. Hehes. Why? Because I won't be recognize 16teen by STA already. ARHH!! Looks like I'll be opposing adult athletes and that is bad news. Hope not lar coz my body small man! hahas! I miss STA too! hehes..not just that la that I miss my 16teen life. There's more actually. Hehes..(:

Now is 3.50pm. So fast man! Woke up do some editing pictures and now its 3.50pm. Just can't wait for me to go back to school. Hmm. I miss everything there. 17teen tomorrow and 16teen will be gone. Bye 16teen. Hehes. I'll be staying at home celebrating my birthday with my medicine! Hehes! Well, its ok for me though. (:

Allrite then, takkaire everyone! Smiles..

"I love you with all my heart..."

Gosh~ I'm in a state of super duper dizzy. My head is shaking while my fingers are typing. God save me. I've been on the computer since morning trying so hard to figure out how in the world to do something. Janz, I'm so so sorry if I can't do what you want me to do...

As for my chicken pox, I felt much better but too bad. I have to recover fully before going back to school which is next week. Either Tuesday or Wednesday. I'll turn 17 in 2 days time. Insyaallah. Omg~ My right eye feel is so painful! Guess what? I'm typing these stuff with my right eye shut. Hahas. But seriously, my head and my eye feel pain. Hmm...

Usually tomorrow will be my Monday blues. I guess tomorrow it will be my most memorable Monday blues! ArgHH!! Never mind. Patience leads the way...

Gosh..I miss dear....7++ more days to go baby! Well, I guess that's all for my blog. Bye!

"I know baby but you're not alone..."

Omg~ Time really flies really fast! Now is around 8.30pm. I hope dear is fine after a long exhausted day for her. I miss her very very much! Well, today woke up ate medicine and then eat breakfast and watch tv. So boring. Then the clock strikes 12noon. I was about to go Friday Prayers when my parents say its ok coz' I'm sick so insyaallah dimaafkan.

The whole day I was on the computer. Doing something that made Jansher go excited! Hahas! I can't wait too dude! You know I know! Hahas! So I just need you to log in again. Btw, its not something dirty okay! :)

Heard from Jansher that Mr Zainal laughed at me. Chicken pox also wanna laugh. Dammit! Wait till you get one big POX on your head dude! hehes. Gosh..My body is so itchy! Nvm. Patience lead the way. Seriously man! I miss dear and buddies! I miss dear's laughter, tickles, sneezing etc etc etc. hehes.

Well I hope 2 weeks is fast! My birthday coming man! And its ok for me to celebrate on my bed. But kinda feel sad too lar. Hmm. Nvm. Its all up to god to decide. Allrite! Takkaire!

"Fiery Rockstar...How's my new nickname? hehes!"

13 days at home is a total boredom for me. I just hope this virus will g away a.s.a.p. Soon after this thing is gone, I'll be back to school as per normal. I miss my buddies and my dearest in school. Gosh.

Just now was a total nightmare. I got my highest fever man! I slept on my bed shivering like one drug addict man! I chose not to on the fan coz' I was too cold and then I was sweating like mad. Once after I woke up, my head was spinning. I can't even walk properly. Omg! Hmm..I miss dear very much. I miss my buddies too! How am I gonna face them when I'm fully recovered? Will they be saying bad stuff or good? God knows the answer...

Well I guess 12 more days to go...Pray for me for a fast recovery...(: and...Happy Birthday Sakhtivel! Bye...

"God gave me this virus for some reason..."

Looks like I'm super bored. Instead of searching for art stuffs on the net, I went blogging. Wth! Hahas! My dad was different today. Hmm. Scary man! Why am I afraid to ask him about something? Why does he kept talking to me like small kid as if I haven't reached my manhood? Hmm. I guess he's worried. Even my friend won the trophy and I the "easy route to get it" doesn't feel anything about it if I chose to show him. Haiz. What a life!

Well, I guess April is here alread. Soon it'll be 11 and after that its 25. Omg! Its so damn fast! 16 years of living had different types of scar on me. And when I turned 17, its time for a new rollercoaster ride. I hope I won't stop smiling to the people I love especially my family, my deary and my bros. And I hope I won't be a burden to them which I think I was during my 16 years of living. Its time to change. I have to face reality that I'm going to take my N level this year. Hmm. How sad I was last year when I supposingly take my Os this year. Big Bohoo~ Its ok. Hmm. Besides that, I don't know how to survive w/o my parents but sometimes, they too didn't allow me to participate for my love to music. What a waste! But who cares, I still love composing nice catchy sound for people to hear. I simply adore music and of course my band, Dusk For Sixteen not forgetting Jansher and those related to it. I don't care people adore my awesome drummer more than me coz its a team man. But sometimes, we too need to look at ourselves at the mirror. Why I say this? You don't have to know. Jansher and I know the answer. So "pandai2" ar find the answer. 25 is coming too! I hope dayah and I will last long long and unlimited long..insyaallah...*grins* I love her very much. 2 years of waiting is long. Hehes. Shy sei! Nvm lar. Hehes. I love her and its my responsibility to take good care of her. :)

Well I guess from tomorrow onwards, I have to control my nonsense. May god bless us...Insyaallah..I hate to say this but...Sometimes, whenever I'm in a "silent mode" please do not disturb me...I have my limits to everything...so that's all..no more...takkaire~

"Love isn't a play thing...if you think it is, you're under the Fool Club..."

Eyes so tired staring at the monitor. Today was another great day plus sick day. I was half way sleeping during English lesson until Mr Ong woke me up. Hahas. My head is still spinning after yesterday a few sec of sparring with old buddy azhari.

So today, went home with deardear. Yup! It was fun! Long time never go Causeway. Then saw Faiz and Eira. Hahas! Coincidence. Kewl! Then after that go home. Now still headache. So later will be sleeping late coz I need to study my Biology which............oh nvm. Very disappointing. Nahbeh turban. Hmm..Tats all folks!

"I don't wanna try to hurt you because I love you...."