"..afraid to loose you..."

man..i feel like giving up man..nvm...art must do well...arghh..y must redo? hmm...gosh..realli must stay back for a while tmr and do...den easy already...muz get A1 - A2...=]...aniwae, heard abt bloggin abt bad stuffs....gosh sounds scary...why ppl nvr tink while writing...? haha..i mean typing...hehe

so juz nw afta sch lepak for a while...it was nami's bdae...dat irritating gross meatball...at last 15..haha...den deary dear offered me Pizza, i refused to eat coz full after eating mee rebus and fries...den suddenly dun wan to waste food and also the smell tempted me, i ate afta the second time...but tis time syida offered..so i eat...tanx! hehe...den went home..

haha..on my way home with dear, haha..i thought of one suggestion for myself..."should i get another guitarist?" haha...hmm..but hu can play good as my guitarist? hmm...nvm..sure one day i'll find the answer....haiya...i realli lazy to do art...haiz...wat to do...ok peeps, caloz...

"this blog is safe to read...god knows..."

so ytd i nvr update coz the whole day i can say i was at woodlands.....got the chance to meet my nephews and niece....wah soooo cute!! esp the one wif the nick, MEI LING..haha! i taught her hw to dance...so cute..hehe...i throw her up and down...she lurve it..den one of my nephews, wah hardcore...i wrestle wif him....wah i really love to have a lil bro to wreslte wif..haha....so ytd eat eat eat...bex! and ytd was 5th Mth wif dear! woooo!!! hehe...hmm...im havin a headache coz of the too much heat and play soccer for a while...haha..got the chance to meet Hafiz...kewl dude...hmm...feeling sick...i wan to cut hair but i wan to keep long...haha...well gtg...today i nvr go IT..hehehe....well caloz....

"it takes time to talk to a coward guy...."

well, i woke up at 0615 hours today. did my weekend routine. pray, eat drink and on the comp..den afta tat wash all the plates and wash my shoes....so white..ya den within one day tat is monday, it will turn dirty....hehe...koyak somemore my shoes...hehe..well arnd 10am, watch PPG, powerpuff girls...kewl!! haha..

afta tat arnd 1150 hrs i went out meet my gurlfwen..had fun with her...long time nvr walk wif her dis long..haha...den sent her to Woodlands...played teddy bear again! hehe..so today is my last day of 4 mths wif her...tmr will be 5th! hehe..

well afta tat went back to cck...went home...once i reached hme, my abg sedara came...JUZ IN TIME...lucky man...if nt i late...but tuition was cool....so fast ended...yeah...tmr is his engagement day...wah...25 sia!! TWENTY 5ive!! haha...yeah..nw chattin wif old buddies and composing new critics song abt some punkass in dis earth..hehe...well tats all...caloz...btw dearest, lourve u!

"...external beauty is temporary.. internal beauty is for eternity..."

hi...today was ok lar...well, skool hrs feelin tired...den afta skool, go mosque...den tumpang adi go skul back wif my another bike...but b4 goin further, durin recess, i saw some of the sec 4 dudes were flying arnd...haha...kewl though but kinda scary...den i went to the toilet to do my business...den went out...trisno shouted, "farhan! nk try?!" i said tk nk ar...den at last i go...gif a try.....among all of them, i was the lightest...so...guess wat? i was in position....and...they threw me up and i was on air!!! sial la...kewl and thrillin man!! den dunno hu the hell ran away, i moving my hands like wings and my elbow hit amin..haha..sori dude...and someones elbow kena me....wah lao...my lips bleeding..haha..so it was kewl man!! nearly hit the celing...wah lao....juz imagine, theres no one....and BAM!! broken bones...haha...

i heard tat she had gastric pain....hmm...pity her man...morning i didnt go skul wif her....so get to tok to her after solat...at least got chance la to tok...haha...dear, takkaire k? =)...well...really kewl flying juz nw....haha...and guess wat? i saw amin and fir go mosque...KEWL...yeah man....

well, tats all folks....takkaire dearest..lurve u...god bless all of you...rock on...\m/

harlow people...today was ok lar..but cannot tahan the pain on my skin...haha...nah its okay to those hu did an "xperiment" to me...ferst feelin when my fwen pinch, pain...den another fwen pull my another side of my hand, nhtg...its like a jerking sound...two times...i was sleepy jz nw...u noe peeling oranges? someting liddat and u see white after peelin rite? yeah...same goes to my skin...but after skin, its PULSE...tanx jan for tellin me wat is dat though im a bio dude...

and after tat dunno wat to do, i squeeze out the blood for fun...den go wash it.....OUCH!! its like a pin poke to ur skin....shouting in the toilet...

den IT Training finished until 5pm...haha...fast sia!! laz min then tell...fucker...wah..mish her seh...btw, nasyida was quiet today...hmm...no fun ar gini...tk gile like last wk...haha...den feel damn hungry and also angry..small thing make big ting...try me if u wan...i make sure i make u stoopid in frnt of evceryone...wanna act big oni...haha..den nw feelin bored...cant wait for TMR!! wohoo...tues is my greatest day...yeah...luv it...hehe..today nvr get the chance to tickle her...got la bt abit...hehe..so tmr? can? hehe...wokae dudes & dudettes...caloz...

"see the other side of me...cheez! hehe.."

ok..suddenly its sunday again! so so so so so fast! haha...so today there will be tuition @ 4pm...and i hope it end at 4.30pm..hehehehe...really lazy ar...wat to do..haha..tmr there will be IT Music shit stuff...haiz...end so late...damn..nw currently getting some inspiration...hehe...so bored mah? haha...

so wats my plan tmr? and tmr's tmr? and tmr's tmr's tmr? i dunno...so bored ar....btw, i cant wait for 30th September 2005...ART GALLERY VISIT!! AND ART STUDENTS GET THE TIX FOR FREE!! AND WE CAN WEAR OUR OWN SHIRTS AND PANTS WHEREAS THE OTHER KAFIRS WEAR SKOOL UNIFORM!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!! The tix is fucking expensive sia...lucky man...cant wait man...

well, seriusly bored nw....can someone tok to me? haha..ok ar...caloz...maybe tat is MAYBE i shall write more later...cant wait for Monday...Tee Hee... =)...mishh u dear..caloz..

feel regret for not coming dwn ytd nite..haiz..mish dearest!! wasted man...alah..y my dad so liddat one? haiya..hack care la...

well today didnt fetch my ghurlfwen coz she got majlis with her family...feel quite bored and aso missing her...den nhtg to do, i practice my bass..a few song and my song...ok ar...can make it...den after a few hrs, got my skateboard back...still in gd condition! tanx members for taking gd care of it..!!! =) so tried sk8ing back...still ok ar...i prac ollie again....haha...at last ollie goofy can already!! last time trjatuh2! tanx to hadri laz time!! hehe...well nw feeling damn hungry...wah..my mother left behind some sambal nyer lauk!!!!! WOHOOO!!!

well, cant wait for my band to finish up "Am I Forgiven?" yeah man...well, till here...caloz...

"loving u is what i do everyday..."

wah lao...today happy + sad + angry day for me...idiot ass!! ok here goes...after art, i went to the canteen then decide to go to the toilet...here goes...nishant was playing arnd with dunno hu...den there was one shampoo bottle...i was in the cubicle and next cubicle was tat kong...nishant go and throw tat shampoo bottle to my door causing kong to think tat i slammed the door which i did nt....and guess wat....hu wont get angry when ure doing business and there someone interrupt..so i open the door and guess wat...everyone...YA EVERYONE in the toilet was silenced..i also chill ar...then at last, tat fucker called my name...

"eh u! come..." so i came to him... "what?" i said. "Why did u slam the door??!!" wah lao..he shout at me i barbarian....i was so damn blur sia...i dunno wat happen!! wat the hell man!! i say i didnt do aniting and he say, den hu? ghost ar? so ur saying ur the ghost ar....den he start to become like one gorilla shouting at me and i was relaxing washing my face....and wipe it with tissue...he sicko man...den he say hw u pee? wah lao...i start to become angry so i stand rudely to him and say i didnt do it! den he say oh ur sayin ur the ghost? omg! i was pissed off...den he say....i dun wan see ur face again....STOOPID man!! den he say GET LOST....!!! ill rmbr ur face for life.....WTF!!! wahlao...haiz..sad and angry...hmm..

den after skool solat den go cozwae den home...alah..i wish i cld go tat mud autumm bt haiz...mish her...well dats all...today is my sway day....haiz...

haiya...today i made a few of my fwens laugh....ya tats all...hehe...

"wanna play teddy bear again dear? hehe..."

my suicidal dreams by silver chair....i loike...so...today was ok lar...except for a few things:

1. nabey! I KANA bullied by the two amigos...Jan & D..wah lao..
2. My beg got dirt becoz of JAN
3. my middle finger bled juz nw becoz JAN sliced with his teeth
4. Syida and Eira beat me
5. im despo in performing with my band when see the stage....pathetic farkers except for the dancers....they sure rock and rolla! btw, cant i introduce HIP-ROCK to KSS? =(

but i sure love it wen i revenge JAN, D, SYIDA & EIRA!! MUAHAHAHAH!! btw, i saw my brudder on the web...man...u've grown...hehe..

hey JAN, tanx for lepak-ing with me juz nw....u sure rock dude...well..miss skateboarding....miss extreminities...miss sports...miss those rough days at the skate park...but one ting i sure miss....: YOU DEAR~!! hehehe....

cant wait for 30 Sept...goin to art museum..hehe...well, im juz too tired to type more...hehe...btw, i feel like keepin AFRO hair...but nt those big ones la....the normal one..wah..cool man..hehe...wokae la...wanna do my hw...see ya later keckos...! =)

"Its Me & Dusky rocking for ya to see..." Lil Janz

well well well...today was damn phreaking great day coz im in a goodie mood..yeah..so ferst thing in the morning, S.S..was sleepy n slept in class with my eyes open..meaning body in class, mind dunno where until something happen...haha..ya..i was den awaken...jansher aso..haha..so after a few minutes of laughter, we sleep again wiyj eyes open again...blah blah blah until physics...haha...i was tahan for recess...haha...physics question do wrongly, at last i do properly and caloz frm dere...haha...

so recess intend to eat nasi ayam...yum. but see time, no time..so i ate 3 fish burgers and 1 cup of fizzy drink...ok ar...full tu full but nt for my standard ar...so after recess got maths...haha...maths lesson, i became part time teacher teaching ppl...haha..so teach teach teach until stomach grumble..want to eat more...wah lao..i recite bismillah before eating aso still hungry..haha..high metobolic rate..hehe...dear, u're lucky nt to be one...hehe..mwaks. so after maths bio...sooo damn phreaking tired already....i slack slack slack until ms suriani called my name and sakthi's name..."see me after class.." haiyooo...so talk talk...haha...den self study period...tat period i finished up my bio...wah...now my hw so light already....yeah baybeh...

den after tat sch suda qatam...den lepaks wif azhari and gang...haha..so farni....tok tok tok then they went home...dere adi start to act big...haha...azhari go threaten him...so we brought him to the toilet...haha..instead of beating him, i tickle his stomach and his reaction was like gay..hehehe....den, at last azhari and gang went home...haha...then lepak wif Jan and Adi...wah lao..so crap man dey...haha...den syida came...wah lao way...queen of crap sia she...wah lao...i talk crap abit, she tok more...siao siao....SYIDA!! stop it la...cum cum cum...wah lao..siao tin tong~!! haha...u rite on my tagboard, wah...i tell u...i write back ar..haha..oh ya~! forgot to write smting...frm there, i start to become hungry..haha...until certain part of the IT lesson, i step go toilet and buy some food...so damn hungry...tanx akmal for temaning me...=)..well...caloz for now...tmr i update....wanna do my UNFINISHED ART!! hehe...calo the maloz...

..ferst of all, i felt relieved...i've done wat i suppose to do...but nearly get wack...i juz say, dis is nt exam...hmm...i did felt sad for him also..everywhere problem...kesian man...should have let him wack me...let him feel relieved....haiz...

oh well...hw nearly finish...maths totally finish...eng dunno hw..art, lazy..S.S no interest...heheh...tmr sch...ok la..no more C.T, fun already...but CA muz damn good..tuition finished..yahoo!! haha...so tinking of buying new electric guitar strings coz, long time nvr play guitar already...gentelan sume mati agaknya..haha...arh..miss her....

hey deareast! dun want to play teddy bear? haiya..haahaha....i want to eat chicken ar...arg..sedap....hehe...ok caloz..

"...have you tried HUMAN HEAD GORENG with a dip of tata sauce? Yum."

as i said ytd, i would post today...yeah..today was damn laughin day for my dear...hmm..i aso "dunno" why..hmm..all the lame jokes i made u laugh...haha..why? hmm...weird...haha...shes cute...lurve her...hehe...mon i make u laugh again k?...hws dat? hehe..

well..decided to show my PPR tmr...yeah...not scared already...at most i kena stab..no lar..hehehe...nag nag...ya...end of year, i do very well..insyaallah...muahaha...well, nwadays im kinda feel gelisah abt DFS...want to do recording ar...but lazy to move our butt..haha..new song coming up..."Am I Forgiven". Please Come Back To Me will be re-record..so...when will it be ready? dun ask...maybe after exams...haha..

ok..monday is normal skool days....phuck man..nvm nvm...alah...monday IT Training until 6...haiyayayayaya....hmm..well...cant wait to make my darling laugh again...hehehe...caloz!

hey dude...hi..haha juz now IT fun sia...i kana puji..haha..the movie making...haha...lame sia the movie...the scene is dinosour extinct becoz of gundam...hahaha..lame sak....so i put suspend music ar...haha....=)

den after that i went home and get ready for solat jumaat...long time nvr wear that snow cap...haha...den after tat go lot 1 nokia shop becoz wanna get FREE game for my hp...wohooo.....cool....while stock last...must go tmr..haha..den go home, dhuha and the rest come along....ate mee soto...yum yum...haha....farni man juz now...

den waited for my ghurlfwen...den went home...den ppr was freaking me out...haha...ar..hack care ar...end of year ar...haha...tanx dear...

ok tmr i update k? caloz!

morning went to IT TRAINING..yeah...music baybeh....den finish go maths...jan decided not to go...so i want to go, i juz go....huh?...ok nvm..learnt a lot today...I MEAN ALOT!! WOHOO!! MATHS IS KEWL!! its was like, teacher was so in good mood..so i relac oni took my hp out when dhuha called and answered dis in front of teache, "dhuha, i got class, bye..." haha...den i put my hp on my table..hahaha...kewl..we ate keropoks! haha...but yet still hungry after that...

then waited for my ghurlfwen finished band..finally...she appeared...mwaks! hehe..so went makan coz damn hungry....den went home..haha...

it was so damn funny when goin home...we played teddy bear...hehe...fun issnt dear? :)...well lets play it again tmr....hehe..sori dear juz nw...ya u noe...:)..well peeps, wish me luck when im abt to show my PPR soon...bye..

hey! i was lookin at my old pix and i saw my pix..haha...so long sia my sideburn...miss it man..some others too! have fun! haha..some stuff can describe me like untidyness...hehehehe....

hello wello..today as usual got IT Training....after that got dental..haha...kewl..after that go makan with fad:azra & me:dayah...but at ferst with syida,siti,nami all..but at last dey chao..haha..so we ate...yum yum..chicken...

ok afta tat, go take neoprint which i last took when i was in pri 3;9 years old...7 yrs of no neo prints...omg..japan language sia..ya the gurls pro...haha..so afta tat as usual went home

haha...had reallll funnn today..haha...well peeps have a nice day!

"..total sweetness..=)"

well, juz got home and no IT Training!! Wohoo!! then spend the rest of the time slacking...waiting for deary dear...den after tat went home...haiya...today no mood bloggin...juz have a nice day...!! =)

hi..sori ytd i cant blog. its because of the server. argh. ok. ytd, went to school at 8 till 10 for IT then got Oral frm 10 - 10+..then went home with Jan..while walking, i was asking him if he seen my girl..den she was in front..haha..fun part comes..dis is where i become spiderman..so we hid from dem..muahaha..den skali, i heard them scream...after knowing it, they saw mamak bin keling..den when dey walk, she told me dat her fwens ask, where's farhan? haha...so i said la..spiderman mah? hehe...well, after walkin round and round, went makan wif Jan..

After that crack jokes with him. haha..went home straight after that..abt 1+, my deary dear called me..tok tok tok until my eyes heavy..hehe...den went out with her...wohoo..study at civics..ya indeed, i didnt recognised her at ferst with the scarf...hehe..after she told me she wore brown scarf, den i recognise....hehe..btw tanx dear for helpin me out at the lib...<3

well..after that went home..now waiting for time to pass...later goin skool...weee..got to see her again...=)...see ya later peeps..

another sunday has arrived and its raining...cooling and here i am all alone at home leaving me with some bake beans which i juz ate 2 plates of it. yum. haiz. i miss her..

still figuring a date for me to give my dad my ppr which is extremely sux. no dear, i haven't give my ppr yet to my dad. this fear in me is threatening me. hmm..

to my dearest, tanx for being there by my side..mwakz. same goes to you. i will always be there for u..<3

gosh..im so feeling alone at home..wish today no tuition for me..& mom kept on comparing me..yeah..wat the hell..hu cares...let the game begin...hu will compare hu at the end of the year..the end..

2oo5..its been a great year but also some disappointment in it. time flies real fast and without noticing it, EOY is tmr. and N Level will be the next and O Level and the list goes on. hmm..start to miss her..yeah..

dis september holiday really need to buck up and not fuck up. i juz wan eng, malay, maths, science and most strongest subjects of all, art to pass to get to sec 4..combine humanities? i dunno..haiz..sad sad..really gonna buck up..

for today, as usual..went fetch my ghurlfrend and went to lot 1..then, went home..i dunno why my mood is down today..no not abt some incident juz nw dear..hehe..u noe i noe..but dis feeling sure sux...

muahaha...i promise man if i pass and promoted to sec 4, i sure damn super extremely hyper shit happy man....god make dis real....

today its like wat the hell...end of term three...and ppr is so damn fuck up...argghh shitz...help god..make me realise that retain is like a hell for me...end of year sure need to study damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn hardessttt.....argg! ok...excluding combine humans...i hate it...feel like droppin it...the rest wah lao..must! haiz...sad man...hmm..

so nxt week is like the whole week is IT TRAINING week...wah...I REALLY HATE RETAIN!!! "errggagagagaearafd amknadlkfndanfal!!" hmm..got to study already man...no more slacking man...realy have to...no mood already...

feel like punching man..to release my damn fuckin stress...opps! ok..really..hate it man but ya i still lurve myself and the love ones...haiz...god help me..i dun wan to get wack, nag, slap, punch, beat and etc from my dad or mum....and 1 thing for sure..dis will come out from their mouth, "other kids no need tuition and u need tuition still like dis.." might as well no need tuition for me..haiz..

im so damn ****ing bored!!!! nthg to do....haizz.....sooooooooooo borrrreedd!! gosh...wat to do...hehe...well.. later i update more...bye...

"I Miss You..."