Salvation
Farhan Roy Rani
who owns the lion's mane.

Prologue


The sky has no limits. Go break a leg.

Stupid Matter/ Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I always hate it when family problem arrived. It suck. I fucking hate it. Son-of-the-gun!

i can't expect myself to be crazy in school at all times. i need to think when i'm at home, right?

It is time/ Monday, February 26, 2007
Now I'll just have to pray. Those scene is a total disaster. Please stop.

what kind of son am i?

Special Day/ Sunday, February 25, 2007
I'm so lazy. Later maybe going Woodlands celebrating CNY. There's still a few days left. Haha! 15 days what. Haha! Its near my aunt's house and my girlfriend house. Around there. But I feel so lazy. I have so much things to do today. Revise my Biology and Maths. Damn! So that means I can't go right? Haha! Half hearted you know! I'm tired also. Hmm.

Happy 22nd Monthsary to dearest! Hehe! 2 more months to 2 years! Hehe! Mwah mwah mwah! I love you!

I think that's all. That's because I'm feeling lazy today. Hah! Seriously man! Ugh~ Wait wait. I wonder when will be the next time I'll be meeting my gf. Hmm. I miss her~

happy 22nd monthsary baby~

This is Life./ Saturday, February 24, 2007
Sometimes, friends can be an asshole. Anyone can. No doubt, I can too! Haha! I've been living for 17 years now. I've seen many types of friends I had. I treasure all of them. But I treasure a friendship between Abu and me the most. We've been friends since we're in K1. Her mother used to teach me how to read the Quran. Thanks to her and allah, I've completed it 3 times if I'm not wrong. Maybe 2. I can't remember. Now, my dad sternly said to me to read it every night. I'll try. I have a new set of targets to achieve now. To pass my 'O' Levels and get my ass out of this school, stay with my girlfriend and overcome the ups and downs together and change my god damn attitude. You've seen me laughing and you've seen me in rage sometimes. There's a wise friend once told me through the msn, "we are muslim. we have to control those laughters." Those words touched my heart. That's why I'm setting a new target in life now.

Back to friends. Some friends could sabotage you do stupid things. I've even gone through that. I still accept them as friends. But who the fucking hell are you to kill your own friend? Haha! Now that's evil. The main thing I'm trying to say is its not good to judge people by its cover. Yeah. That's all. I hope I can be what I want to be. Its important. And sometimes, whenever I'm sitting alone, I think about the future. Not the future as in what am I going to be when I grow up. The future as in The Judgement Day. Aren't you afraid? Those cash and many things on this earth won't be following you. I don't know why I'm talking about this. Haha! But its the fact. You won't live long on this earth. You will be question by god. And imagine the question is about the 5 times daily routine you'll have to do every day. Shit. I think I didn't do some of it. Well I guess its time for a change.

Well, I have to say that I miss her now. Yeah.

That's all.

please don't talk behind our backbones! haha!

A quick one/
Oh great! I accidentally twisted my injured ankle. Its ok. I can still walk. Later I'm going off for a soccer game at the usual place. Oh yeah, I heard that my Batok skate friend suffer an injury like me too! Haha! How unlucky. Damn. Its going to be a long recovery dude.

I can't sleep well last night. In fact, I can't sleep well for the past few days. I kept yawning and yawning the next day. Its just so unhealthy. I think I'm growing old.

My friend is turning 17 this Monday. Wow. Its like 2 years I'm with my classmates. And day by day, they will soon turn 17 and some 18. Its time to take sometime to recall back what I had done for the past 17 years of my life. I hope I will reach 18 soon. Who knows. Its god's willing. And happy belated birthday to my girlfriend's sis and happy birthday to my kindergarthen friend, Noriman today!

I'm sorry to that certain someone too. Its ok. My fault. I'm sorry. I don't want to elaborate further. I don't like it. That's all I have to say. I'm really sorry. With no caps lock or bold letters. I'm sincerely sorry...

I guess that's all. I'm off for the game.

it matters

Short and simple./ Friday, February 23, 2007
I'm tired. Ok here's another video. A clearer one. Damn! Can anyone find me those cubes I mentioned on the previous post? Thanks!

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v253/Webhead_Punk/?action=view&current=RMOV5071.flv

Yes! Next Friday soccer match! Tomorrow as usual! Wohoo!

I think that's all. I guess nothing much. Hmm. Sometimes I hate changes. That phrase is for me. Haha. Yeah. That's all. Bye~

saying that will allow me to say what i like

I love nurHIDAYAHbteaziz{:/ Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Read that? Yup! I love her! I love today! I love her! I love today! I feel gay! Happy gay! Janz was high today! haha!
I met dear after school. Eat with her and walk around. I miss her already. Omg! Hmm. Hope to see her tomorrow{:

Anyway, these are the cubes I would like to have!


I want all of them even though I got the Rubix Cube already. I want to buy the original one someday. Hehe! These toys are amazing man! I like it! Haha!

Well, I guess that's all. Damn! I miss dear already! Are you reading this dear? Hehe! Its true ok! Hehe. Hope to see you tomorrow! Love you!

That's all!

i won't go for other girls. just you! you?

Happy Lunar New Year!/ Sunday, February 18, 2007
Wohoo! Maybe I'mgoing to get my ang pao soon! Haha! I hope so. I hope I'm not busy tomorrow. Today is so boring man! I decided to take a video of myself solving my $2.50 cube which I shared with dear. Hehe! I'm quite slow solving it! Haha! It took me 1 week and 6 hours a day not having any meals trying to solve the cube! Hahaha! And I look like a geek shit! Haha! So here goes!


If you can't view it, click here: http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-247219760549946139&hl=en

Haha! Thanks to my younger sis who helped me out to take the video. No sound. And its quite dark. I hope its ok.

I miss dearest seh! Wah seh! Haha! Ok then.

Take care readers!

akan ku selalu rindu pada mu

They miss me? Haha!/ Friday, February 16, 2007
I heard that my skate friends miss me. Hahaha! Didn't expect that. Sorry man! This year is important beb. Sorry~

Today was an unlucky day for me. I came late for school. I was being detained from school for 1 hour. After everything, DM said sorry to me and let me go. Hahaha! I rushed home and get changed. Got out and reached the mosque on time. Alhamdulilah~

Met dear after that. Search for my dad's present and went home. She went home earlier. It’s all right. Not all right when it happened again. I hate it.

So I guess that's all for today! Tomorrow playing soccer! Hahaha! I can't wait despite my injured ankle. Hehehe!

Take care readers!
and when i think about it, everything turns into a hatred world

Silence Means Something/ Thursday, February 15, 2007
I was happy to see her open my bag and her dazzled look. I was controlling my feelings. I know I was quite angry. But I wasn't after she opened the second zip. I hope you like it. The smell of me on that thing and the smell of love on the other. That's for you to keep my dear.

Alright. Today is Total Defence Day. It was really an awesome day especially the last period. Tug of War! The first match was awesome. Consist of Karthik, Mark, Me, Keng Chun, Nick and Jia Liang. I was supposingly be the timer but I was too tired to shout it out. I nearly sprained my ankle 360 degress. Hahaha! Imagine it's crushed. Damn! I'll have my own 'car' then! How cool is that? This year, I feel the bond in my class, 5C. Janz the entertainer for the class enlighten everyone and come up with the moto, We Got The SOUL! Since the first day of school man. You rule my man! The class was really awesome. Mr Yeo even took the personal class photo and place it as the wallpaper on his desktop. How cool is that? He rule man! Ms Losiny is awesome too! I kept disturbing her! Hahaha! Mr Yeo and Ms Losiny make a great Mentors for us! We Got The SOUL! Do you? I don't think so sucka!

This week is going to end soon. Chinese New Year is coming. I'm going to celebrate it at my father's cousin house, Aunty Azlin. But I don't know if I'm free to visit. I love her cooking man! Haha! I hope the plan goes well as what my father said. My father is turning 48 this Saturday. I have to get him a nice present. I hope he'll get to live longer and I hope he could see my children and my sister's children in the future. Amin. He's a great dad even though he's grumpy at times. He's a very patience dad even though he punched me before to discipline me. He's a great masseur even though he massage my swollen ankle that day till I cried. Haha! That was a lesson for me that day. Haha!

Tomorrow will be a good day I hope. Its going to be a half day. Wohoo! Then after solat, I'm meeting my girlfriend and go find my dad's present. At the same time, catch up with things we've left behind. Replacing the moment when I turned mean. The moment I made her cry. The moment I was angry and upset. The moment I almost hate her. The moment I turned stubborn and rebellious. I hope tomorrow will be a new start. I just really really really hope. Whatever or whoever is in me, I hope its gone. Insyaallah. I'm looking forward for tomorrow. And I don't care what people think about me after reading this. Whatever it is, I still love my girlfriend. I will never leave her. I'll stay in love with her. I'll pray hard and I'll try to achieve it. Amin. I love you nurhidayahbteaziz...

That's all readers. Thanks for reading even you don't tag. Hehe. Take care and have a nice day...

we got the SOUL! do you?

Saturday!/ Saturday, February 10, 2007
The weather was hot today! Mus, Ridza and I had Nasi Lemak for our breakfast and we suffer so much during the game. Nearly vomited it out! Thanks ar SANTAN! Haha! I'm very tired now. Everyone had fun today! Haha! There were quite a lot of people just now. I hurt my ankle again. Damn! Its ok. I don't mind.

I can't sleep well yesterday. Thinking about it all the time. Its easy to say "forget about it" but its hard to do it. Haiz. I wish I could talk face to face. Its hard to talk through the net. I hope it will be forgotten. I guess I was really mad yesterday. I'm a sensitive guy. Say what you like. I have the genes. Well, I guess I have to avoid it. Sobz. I'm really sad thinking about it. Hmm.}:

Shucks! My cousin got the NS letter already! He's going to be a Policeman soon! Hahaha! Damn! I want that too man! Please! Tomorrow is his birthday. I wish you all the best cuz!

Well, failure comes once. I will take it as a lesson. I'm ready for the action. Let's do it Farhan. Make the retainees proud! Hahaha! Crappish Shit Son Of The Gun! Haha!

And I hope I could be the old me back. I hope. I can't do it when I see it. I don't like promises to be broken. Sobz. I guess I was too angry. That's all.

with my sincerest heart, i'm sorry my lovely}':

Just happiness and sadness./ Friday, February 09, 2007
Yeah. Congrates to my cousins and friends and her. Yeah. Its really a memorable day of my life. I hope I could tear my pocket after I get a good result next year. Hehe!

I was thinking of going to the club with my cousin soon. Yeah. It'll be cool. Yeah. Who cares. I think my mum does. So maybe just a little talking will do. I'm going to do whatever I like now. And tomorrow will be a soccer day. I'm going to be crazy, forget all these things if I can. Now you guys know how sensitive I can be. Hehe. Yup. That's me. Say whatever you like. I'm really not in the mood. But I'm happy for her results and friends and cousins!

Well, I feel so different. Uneasy and disappointed. Goodbye.

i can tear anytime now. now i can cross the line since u cross mine}:

How do I forget about it?/ Thursday, February 08, 2007
I feel nervous for my girlfriend already. Gosh. Kindda feel sad too but I hope tomorrow she'll have a good results. Same goes to all O level candidates.

School was sucky these days. I hate it. I failed alot of times. I can puke! Son of the gun man! I know I can make it. I want to man! Hmm. I have mix emotions now. How do I forget it?

Everytime I think about it, I'll be different. Sometimes, I see and sometimes I hear. All sorts of stupid things which I can turn happiness into fear. How do I forget about it? Hmm.

Just now in school, Janz and I was selected to be one of the leaders for Ice Breaking games for this coming June camp. Yeah! I hope I can have a buddy! A small one please. Hehe. Janz kept disturbing me when that particular person do something to me. Haha!

I saw one of the sec 1 girls. She was so damn tall man. For a moment, I thought she's 17 or 18. She's just 13. Haha! Wth.

Well, here you go. My blog, My stories, My life. I have mix emotions now. Hmm. Till then.

how do i forget about it? hmm.

Yeah./ Monday, February 05, 2007
Singapore is the champion! Yeah! Well done man!

So today school was a long and tiring one. I'm having my headache now. Lucky I have finish my homework. Damn! There will be a Social Studies common test. Hmm. I'm so lazy. I can't wait for this week to end. Its a nerve wrecking week I guess. My girlfriend is taking her O's result. Shit la. If not I also. Haha. Well, nvm. Haiz. And I hope my cousins and friends do well too.

I miss dearest so much now. Hope to see her tomorrow{:

My headache is very classic one! Damn! This morning during art lesson, I kept blowing my nose. S.S, Ms Tan didn't come. We played 21. Haha! I was surrounded with girls. Hehehe. Dear are you reading this? Hehe. Well, I love you sayang...

That's it.

- dat's ours__ ;

Everything Updated!/ Sunday, February 04, 2007
I've change the colour again due to dullness I see on the previous one. Its been one week since I got the fever. I haven't recover fully yet though. Quite a long one huh? I can't say shit or any insulting words towards my sickness. Why? God is the one who gave it to me. Every sickness will be a blessing, insyaallah.

The O Levels Results will be released soon. Eventhough I'm not taking it which supposingly I'm taking it, I can feel the pressure already for my 2 cousins, my friends and of course my lovely girlfriend. I pray all the best for all of them. Amin.

Later I'm going back to my room to start revising as today is Sunday! My revising day! Haha! Oh well, Sakthi told me about the results thingy. He said he felt sad about it. Who doesn't? I mean for Sakthi and my case. 6 years. I promise my dad I will not waste this 6 years man! I'm going to do well. Especially maths. I will and I do.

Dear, what are you doing now? Hehe! Miss you!

Ok, I guess that's all.

shower me with the hearts{:

Huggs and Kisses/ Friday, February 02, 2007
Haha! Guess what? While I was sending my girlfriend back home and we were in the train, we saw Mr Yeo! Wohoo! Haha! Monday sure I'll get teased! Haha!

I always hate saying goodbye to my girlfriend when about to go home. She said to me if can she want to be with me all the time. How I wish that too my dear. I guess we'll have to part for a temporary period of time right? And everytime before we go, she'll do something to me first before going off. Its either she first or me! Hehe. I told her my problems just now and I finally received a good honest answer. I just love her. I cannot deny that. Hehe. Wohoo! I feel so good man!{;

I had awesome time in school and after school when eating out. Hahaha! We laughed till my stomach was about to burst. Hahahahaha! It was crazy man! Janz was the joker for the day! Hahahahhaha!

Yes. During my art, Mrs Tay was quite disappointed with those who never come on last Tuesday. Lucky me I was sick. So she excuse me. Haha! Then, I'll have to show her my 3 more drawings which I owe her. Damn! She helped me drew even realistic than mine! Thanks 'cher! So now, I'll have to take some pictures. I need dear's help. Because if I do it at home, it's kindda hard. Hmm. Can dear? Please!! I'll give you something if you help me! Hehe!

Well I guess that's all. Btw, I think I want to join the course my respected friend of mine, Dhuha take. Yeah. Why respected? I don't know. I feel he's been very very good to me. Haha! Appreciate all those honest advice man! If I can't get through that course, I'll go into my mature lame ass friend course he took! He's Asmin! Haha! He's another one. Haha!

Well, that's all I guess. Peace to all nation.

bluek! its not pain! hehe! i<3you

I love today!/ Thursday, February 01, 2007
I love today man! I've got the chance to meet my DEAR! Wohoo! Hehe! She's like so close to me today. I felt loved. I love you baby~

And today, school was great too! Geography homework for the first time I've done it. Haha! All by myself. Then when my classmates said that there will be a mini maths test, Janz & I were like nervous already. What made us even more nervous when Mr Yeo said that whoever failed will have to attend his IP Coaching today! I was damn nervous! Luckily, Janz & I managed to finish it completely with a Pass! Wohoo! So we don't need to come for the IP. Yeah man! Transformation was totally hard for me man! Totally confusing. This is what happen when I don't have a tuition teacher who always never fail to make me feel estatic whenever he come to my house teaching me with his jokes man! Haha! He's my elder cousin! But sometimes, its a bit troublesome. Hehe!

So after the test, Janz stayed in school and I went out to meet my dearest! Wohoo! Hehe! Took bus and went to library. I borrowed a book and left there. Bought bubble tea and chill. Hehe. While chilling, I disturbed her. Which really made her jealous. Hehehe! No wonder she's so close to me today. Hehe. I love you! After everything, we went back home. How I wish we could stay together longer. But maybe tomorrow we shall meet again? Hehe!

Well, that's all for today. Wait, I think I hurt my ankle again. Maybe due to today's Physical sports. Hehe! Oh ya! I saw Mr Ho! My former Co-Mentor for 3H! Yeah! I guess that's it!

I'm off!

please stay closer to me everyday because i will my dear{:

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