11. dimple wimple

Farhan Roy Rani

who owns the lion's mane.

The sky has no limits. Go break a leg.

Today I should go to the Balloon Hat Festival. I SHOULD! I asked my dad for permission to go but I wasn't allowed. Embarassing. I'm so sorry honey I can't make it to your performance. I truly am. ): This morning, my dad suddenly scold me to study. Its like hello? In the first place, you did told me this already and I didn't do anything wrong what. And I really get mad and sad when he said I'm left behind, I never study and stuff. Haiz. I studied like mad cow before exams and still, he refused it. I'm so fustrated now. I felt like tears running down my cheeks and of course breaking the kitchen wall. Why are they so protective? Why can't I do what I want? I am so down. I don't know what to do man. Even my friends said "weak ar, alah, bleh ar.." etc etc. Why can't I go? Is 17 an age of a baby? I'm truly sorry dear. I'm truly sorry to those who invite me to go with them. I'm truly sorry.

I know running away from home isn't a great idea. But sometimes, I thought that way before. Think of it again, I won't be survive long enough to go out there on my own w/o the world most evil and grusome enemy of all, money. I've endure it long until just now I spoke to my dad about my studies and finally he talked to me nicely. I was about to break down just now. I hate it man. I feel bad about everything. I can't go out and watch dear, I can't go fight in a ring for my team, I can't do what I love most and I can't have a tiny bit of freedom. )): I'm so down man. Not emo but down. Fcuk emo ok?

Haiz. I miss dear loads right now and of course I feel very bad for not turning up today. Hmm. I hope she's fine after her sickness yesterday. Well, if my dad wants me to follow him go hiking next two weeks, I'll know what's the answer. I don't want to go. No way. That's it. Its my choice. He can't force me. Hmm. I can't hate my life. But I am definitely feeling real down right now. But from now on, if I feel moody, I'll try to hide it and be as normal as I can be. Its such a burden to people around you who is not wrong. I'm truly sorry to those I did this before. I truly am. Oh I'm missing dear right now~

-I'll be fine I guess.-

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