fuck dammit...my dreams had been shattered...wat i expected is the other wayyyy round...haizz...90% to get 2SG not 90% get 3SG...damn...my heart sank yesterday after Jan called me telling me the "good" news...dammn...now im nt a good leader...haiz...wat kind of SSG am i? leading a platoon to get 2SG and at laz? oni 2 get 2SG...dreams shattered guys..yar..dreams shattered...im the first SSG to lead a coprals and brought them up to be a 3SG in the end majority...hoping for a gd result but in the end, oh my god...oh god am i a good leader? dammit arsehole! waste of time being a SSG....haiz...actually ytd, i juz kept myself happy when seeing u guys but...no not at all...sorry is nothing in ncc..ya now i see y sir say like dat...haizz..
ya..u all said u all changed..make sure...by nxt training...i wanna see...make sure end of year all of u get promoted and i hope some get to go to Senior Spec Course....k tats all...